I feel like I'm a stone. I feel like I'm stuck in a place where I can never run from. I can neither go back or front. It's really frustrating. And I just want to make 2 to 3 friends who would listen to me talk about this . 

I can understand you, if you wamt you can talk yo me

Mental Health

Is fake it till we make it even a thing?

3am Thoughts

feels like i have friends no I don't have

Anyone here who literally have no friends at all ???

Why do some people showoff ?? Like do they need validation???  

It always hard when I found myself scrolling through the WhatsApp contact and find out that my friend are online...the urge to chat with them are so damn big but the audacity that I have was probably smaller than a amoeba....

Plus when I was crying the hell out of myself but there none to talk to so I found myself stupidly waiting for them to chat me....but it always run through my mind that who the hell am I to disturb them with my problems....it hurt everytime I realize that last night I drive myself to sleep with full tears while waiting for someone to realize my status and start calling me or chats with me😭😭😭

How stupid am I rights 🥲🥲🥲🥲


I don't smoke, drink, or party every weekend. I don't play around or start drama to get attention. Yes, we do still exist!



Career

how can I maintain the friendship and not have those feelings overpower my emotions
dosti Tod di maine toh nai reh paunga 
aur abhi bhi nai reh paarha 


Lately i feel like im subcontiously mixing my desire for a romantic partner with my friend group. 
Some backround, im a 20yo straight guy throughout my life i can only remember having crushes on women. Also my current friend group is only guys. 
Out of my friend group 1 person has been really supportive to me when i wasnt in a very good spot. I talk to these people every day and we mainly talk over a mostly voice based platform like discord. And the problem is that sometimes i catch myself feeling possesive over that one person and expecting affection from him.  I have thought about my sexuality but i dont really ties in here, i think it mostly is the lack of physical interaction and affection that has come to a lot of people with the pandemic. I really feel like sometimes even if i try to think it through using logic my emotional brains picks up and makes me feel sad and extremely lonely.
Thanks for reading, if you have anything to say please, by all means

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