I feel like I'm a Big failure of my lie.. don't want live any more...but I have 2 kids they stop me to tink to die but I'm unable to handle my emotions

see there will be an alternative solution. Don't make your family suffer because of you. I Can understand you are really going through hard. but sit and think calmly, If you are having depression take therapy. Don't harm yourself

Breakup

so theres this boy who says he likes me a lot and is willing to wait; he knows im an overthinker and he says he wants someone to talk to but i feel like if i dont chat him he wont even talk to me. also i think he doesnt like me anymore. i dont want to get hurt but every single time i just want to talk to him so im throwing away my pride. trust me his a nice guy and hes not a red flag but what are ways for me to not get hurt?

Overthinking

Day 98 of writing journal entries.

Happy Easter everyone!! Hope all of you guys had a great day today. ❤️

I had a nice day today, the sermon at church was good and I loved helping the little kids during the Easter egg hunt. Then my grandparents came over for dinner and we had a good time since we haven’t done that in a while. The rest of my day went as usual, chilling in my bedroom haha.

I now have plans to start learning how to draw more, but in my off time I’m gonna work on some poems which I might share on here. Now, that’s all for todays entry! Goodnight guys. :)

Personal Growth

Actually i have a bf and 6 months ago my mom and grandmother had find about him.. he live in my neighborhood only... soo that moment was very hard for me.. bt yess i love him so much.. so i didn't break my relationship.. yesterday after my tution i met him. And at one place we were clicking some pictures and one man came and started threatening us that we are doing something wrong bt Actually we're just taking pictures... he told me to go from there. He will handle it.. i came home.. then he told me that unknown person had beaten his friend and humiliated them in front of crowd... I'm feeling very guilty about this.. after this every one in our neighborhood means his friends are asking that what you were doing with that girl.. I'm very scared what if this our parents cane to know about this.. how are we gonna servive..

Boyfriend

How to deal with anxiety? 

3am Thoughts

Whats you're favourite colour and whats the story behind it being your favourite... 

Hope

I have always wanted reassurance from others, wanted to fit in, have a perfect body image, and BE LOVED. My friends ask me why I get so attached to people so quickly, let me tell you why. My whole life I have struggled with gaining and loosing people, my parents got divorced when I was in kindergarten, my mom got remarried after 1 month of talking to this new guy, my dad going from girl to girl, having toxic friends who hurt me mentally, having no supportive grandparents that show they like me, my comfort dog passed away on my birthday and getting used by guys. Whenever someone that makes me feel good or saves me from really dark time comes into my life I get attached because they are the only people I have. When these people leave me I feel useless and not enough because I needed them in order to be happy. I did a bunch of fucked up shit recently because I really liked someone but he bailed on me and I decided to post about it because I was mad and didn’t know how to feel. I really like him and I want him to know that but he doesn’t feel the same way about me and its hard. I have realized that if a guy or girl does not like me for who I am I should not change myself for them. In order to develop happiness you need to love and appreciate yourself. 

One Sided Love

Everything has a time, just wait for that right moment 💭 

Affirmations

When we don't text daily but whenever we do it's always the same energy and same bond , no judgements, no expectation, no demands, just good company >>

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