I feel like I have no purpose anymore… I am just here for others but I don’t get the same in return. I try my best with everything that I do… but yet nothing I do gets acknowledge. I just wan to feel appreciated and not pressured all the time. Its like I want to be happy so bad but like I forgot how that feels. Even in my relationship, I do everything for this guy but yet he still feels like he is not getting what he wants. I buy him everything he wants, I give him my love and I support him and I am always there for him. But he doesn’t recognize that… but when I say “no” to sexual things he gets mad because I don’t give him the answer he wants to here. Its like I don’t even make him happy anymore. He apologizes for the way he treats me and says he’s never gonna leave me but yet he is slowly drawing away from me. Its like if I were to leave today… would he even care? I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I hate crying… I hate feeling I am worth nothing. He looks at other females as he should be looking at me. I know I don’t have what he wants… and I get more confused everyday as to why he stays with me… He has become a big part in my life and its like he is the person I need. He knows me best… he knows my body, my mind, my feelings, my everything… I just loosing myself slowly.