Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I feel like I have dealt with so much in my life and I am not a very open person I have never been open to my parents just because I feel like they will think I’m weak they won’t care or they won’t understand I have held in so much thoughts and emotions and just acted like I was OK to the point now I wish I could cry I feel like if I let everything out I would feel great but I am emotionally numb and I can’t cry I just can’t cry at all and what sucks even more I have no friends at all literally no one I get in my head a lot so normally I’m just stuck at my house alone with my thoughts I seriously wish I had friends I just can’t make them for whatever reason I have social anxiety no one wants to talk to me all I ever wanted was someone to talk to who I can actually tell how I really feel too but I’ve never had that person in my life The friends I’ve had in the past I’ve never felt good or telling them anything because I just feel like they won’t care I feel like they’ll just say sorry you feel that way and move on with life I’m not expecting someone to take away all my pain I just would love to have someone to listen