I feel like I am In a real world now, I was Ij a relationship from last 4 years and yesterday she said she just want to be my GF she don't want to get married and the painful thing was she said It so normally and I started feeling bad because I was emotional fool who was having different things In mind but as she have a backup, I mean person to marry her, she was so practical with that 

Try telling her that..  I know its easier said than done but try telling her that u love her and want to be with her for all the days to come. If she is determined not to marry u and marry the guy she kept as a backup you should move on and try to find yourself a better partner . Champ u  are not worth a heartbreak after giving all the efforts and time to her
. Hope u have a good life ahead of u

Ps she might be comfortable in taking things slow try to clear all the doubts with her

Girlfriend

I want a girlfriend like just friendly! No se*ual needs just like you know a support system! I don’t want a nibbi ok!😂 18-19 tak ki chale gi kyuki mein 19 ka hoon 😁

I have been going to college from last August but I am still struggling to make friends.
So what happened is that we had offline online hybrid online classes from september 2021. Due to personal reasons I could only go to college by the end of October. By the span of nearly 2 months, most people had already created their own friend groups. My roommate also arrived on the same day as me, so I thought maybe we could be friends. For the first 2 days she talked to me a bit.... not alot....yet still I was fine with her. Then one fine day she decides she wants to go for clubbing with one of our mutual friends. I was not really interested, hence I decided not to go. She went out at 6 pm and finally reached at 11 pm. When she came back, I realized she didn't go for clubbing as she had a lot of shopping bags with her. I felt a bit bad because she didn't call me but then I decided to let go of it. But from that day onwards she started avoiding me. I didn't know what to do. I knew a few other people in college but still I wasn't close to anyone. I tried talking to other people but still I felt like intruding them. And then I got sick. This is the point when i felt most lonely. I didn't feel like doing anything and just felt sad. I did recover within a few days but after this incidant I felt even more lonely. We had several functions in college such as fresher's party and diwali celebrations where I just went alone. Loneliness hit more hard when I saw other people sitting and having fun. I really tried interacting with more people but I just felt likr intruding other's friendship groups 
This experience has left me permanently scarred and i just don't even feel like interacting with anyone anymore. Sorry for the long paragraph. I know this story dounds a bit off....I wanted to dhare more incidants but I already feel like I have written alot.🙂















s not really interested so I saif 

Lonely

I want to love someone soo badly ,but i have no girlfriend 😅😅🥰

Love

I was really in love with a girl, I was ready to leave everything for her. She was into me too, we would go out, spend some fine time, and talk all day. Then one day, when I told her to take things to the next level then she said that her family won't accept and I thought I should wait, she agreed. As I was really into her so we decided to remain friends but then she started to ignore me. When I tried to make things better she again started making excuses. We work together, we have to see each other daily, and things are getting so awkward, I am getting hurt, I can see that she is getting hurt, I want to make things better but she won't reply to my texts, she wouldn't return my calls. She just cut me off, she is seeing my texts but she isn't replying, she was everything to me and she just left me high and dry, I have anxiety and I get impatient when I don't know the meaning of how things went bad. I can't forget her just like that. I am indulged in self-harm activities. I want to get better, but she isn't even telling me to leave, so I am thinking that she might come back. What do I do? should I leave or should I stay and wait for her to come back as I really love her.

Relationships

Man I miss her so much. I really miss her a lot. I wish I hadn't made so many mistakes. We were perfect for each other. She was the best woman I have ever known. I lost her because of my own faults. If I had a chance, I could have completely changed the past. I wish I could go back in time. Now that we aren't together, nothing feels the same. I sometimes play the songs that we used to dance to, together and fall asleep only to wake up alone. Today she's with a better man who deserves her more than i did. But I still miss her and I will love her till the sun stops shining. To all the folks out there, treat your partner well. You will miss them when they aren't around. It's been two years and I still miss her.

3am Thoughts

Observe her as she lights a cigarette, puts her phone on silent, strokes her hair with the left hand and silently stands on the balcony to watch the skyline lighting up the darkness of the city, trying to figure if she is happy, or maybe, just trying to understand what happiness means to her. 

Gaze at her, hear the words she doesn't say as she looks into your eyes holding your hand, for there will be days when utterances will not find her, or she will not find them.

Know that she doesn't talk much. After all, she is still too afraid to give away all of herself, because people in the past haven't cared for her the way she wanted to, that she has learnt to find peace in herself, in the dark moon and in her favourite pack of cigarettes.

She will not open up to anyone and she will close herself out totally because she does not feel good talking about her vulnerable sides, she will give you a hundred reasons to believe that she is okay. But let her lie on your lap and stroke her hair and tell her you will stay.
And if you stay...

She will make you her home, and she will bet his life on never letting you go.

If you stay, she will always stand before through anything. Whatever comes for you will always have her standing first. If you stay, she will never let you fail ever again.

If you stay, she will make the stars fall at your feet, she will love you for life and in the world that lies beyond it.

So this girl is from my city and she lives in Abroad I was also there till last year, we started talking 6 months back and things got serious from my end very deeply and from her end not too deep but yes it was something we used to be on video call day and night, we were not dating dating as we know there will be no future as there is a big difference in terms of Financial status between both the families. Now 2 days back she got pissed over something and we stopped talking and then next morning she found a guy on bumble, he invited her to meet and she went to see him the same afternoon.
They were roaming around later it got cold so she went to his place and they were again drinking talking and stuff. Then that guy kissed her and she dint refuse but after sometime she did and came back to her place. 1 day after all this happened she says sorry about talking to me like that and arguing over something which I was not related to and asked me to not let go of her. I was happy that my soul is back but half an hour later she spilled the beans where she told everything that happened with the guy and I was shattered, it broke my heart to the core now she wants me to make peace with the fact that this is gonna happen and we both need to be open to see anyone and comfortable sharing about it ignoring the fact that we both have a thing for each other in our heart but I am unable to do it and I am not ready to share her with anyone, thinking of she being with someone else breaks my heart into pieces.
Now I don’t know what should I do? Should I make peace with it and keep loving her till whenever or should I let go off her. She doesn’t want me to let go off her as she says I am someone she always wanted, I also don’t want to let her go because of how I feel for her.
Please suggest me what’s best for me?

Mental Health

My ex left me in June 2020 because she was entering a new world, getting into an MBA college and she thought it will be easy to find someone better than me for her. I don't want to work in corporate so I was never into MBAs. She was always that person who would replace me whenever she had a better option and she eventually did. On the other hand, I am this guy who finds it very difficult to overcome this situation. Hopeless romantic, way too emotional. Ever since this has happened, I have my confidence, entirely. I stutter while speaking to new people. I don't feel like talking to my friends so I avoid calls and texts. I don't like doing anything I did, neither have I found new hobbies/activities. Not saying that I cant get her out of my mind. I do dwell on her thoughts but it has gotten better. But at times, just one thought and there goes a week of my life. Everything I do now is an act of half-hearted attempts to make things right for me and move ahead. The pandemic hasn't helped a lot in the situation, ofc. I'm afraid of being judged but I was never the person with this trait. I'm just too afraid, paranoid of I don't know what all things. I'm not excited about anything and that's a problem. And I just wanna make things right but I really don't know how to do it. i never got to talk about all this with anyone so I couldn't comprehend all this and its taking a toll on m. I've also developed this weird habit of running away from emotionally difficult situations. I'm less than half a man I used to be and I'm insecure that I'll never be enough because it was my first relationship and I out-did myself and yet wasn't enough in front of such a weird reason ''now that I'm in an MBA college, I'll find someone better to replace you, so we're done''. I just don't want to think about it and get at least half of my confidence/excitement/interests/energy/vibe, call it whatever, I just want it back. I loved it too hard, or maybe it's some other lame reason, but it screwed me. 


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