I feel like I always do today. I spend years thinking I don’t have the friends I’ve always wanted. I’m too withdrawn. I can’t be as funny as everyone wants me to be. I’m trying to look good. Even if I don’t have friends in real life, I want to show everyone that I have online friends. But we all know that’s not the real friend. I’m just kidding myself. All I want is someone to hug me the moment I cry. Is that too much to want? But what upsets me the most is that people who say they’re my friends only take advantage of me. Just smile at me for help. I get mad at myself because I don’t know people. I’m so greedy now, I can accept whoever wants to be friends with me. They say when something happens, it’s okay, it’ll be fine soon. But my heart really hurts. I don’t think I’m going to feel good sharing this or make friends. All I wanted to do was relax. Thank you if you’ve listened to me this far.