I feel like everything is slipping from my hands. Time, people, situation, relations and what not. I donāt feel connected to anyone at a times and I try hard to fit in sometimes (I feel).
I also feel un-loved at a times. Unseen for most of the times (I could be wrong, but then I feel it sometimes. And since the last few days, I just canāt ignore it).
I have these constant thoughts, Will my friends and family (except my parents) will ever cry when I die? What if I suddenly die and I didnāt get the chance to talk to people I wanted to. What if I suddenly die and I didnāt get the chance to mend broken relations.
If I go missing someday, will people even notice it?
There are so many ifās in my mind and so many scenarios, which isnāt leaving me and I feel that in some or the other way itās affecting me, my mental and emotional stability and my relationships with the people around me.
Sometimes, I honestly donāt feel like living.
Ann @cherryb
I can totally relate to you you know, I get so badly anxious due to these thoughts but no one notices these thingsā¦at one point I just threw everyone of my friends out of my life without saying anything I just stopped replying in the group and they just forgot meā¦they did not even noticed that I was gone and not thereā¦and that thing hurted me so bad cuz those people were my best friends and I did and cared so much for them bt still they never cared and Iām hurt bt still try to stay strong and move on and honestly its very hard like I feel so alone all the time but it lead to a good thing too that Iām focusing on my future nowā¦and even successfully started my business but even after this it still feels emptyā¦but that doesnāt mean you have to think abt themā¦just think about yourself and ik it will be very hardā¦talk to everyone hereā¦you can even ping meā¦Iāll be your friend and promise wonāt judge or anything but donāt think that you donāt belong or stuff like that you do you do belong here you just have to find people who will genuinely care about youā¦sorry for such a long paragraph bt I hope itās worth itš
Heyy!!
Let me start by clearing your doubt about somebody crying on your death. No matter how much unloved you feel but thereās always someone who cares, always, be it your any friend or family or maybe just a random person. Of course you are gonna be noticed if you are not where you are. Everybody gets these thoughts but deep down we know that there is someone whoās gonna be badly affected if youāre not around.
Secondly, you are an over thinker. You tend to think about āwhat will happen ifā¦?ā a lot. And you think in a negative way which worsens the situation. I feel that if you think are slipping away from all your relationships then you yourself are trying to distance yourself from the outside world. Interact with the people you love. You clearly understand the worth of relationships so go and mend your relations no matter what it takes. You donāt have to think about dying with broken relationships. You have the power to make them right now itself. Be it your mistake or somebody elseās but for you the relationship matters more than a mistake so just go get it right.
Another suggestion i have is that death is unexpected and we donāt know what is gonna happen the next day or the next minute so yes of course there will be unsaid things left. For that you can write it down. Try and write what you feel, maybe not daily if you donāt have time but after 2-3 days, write down what you feel. Maintain a diary. Trust me, it really helps a lot.
Thank you so very muchā¤ļø
This made me cry for good. Thanks alot ā¤ļøā¤ļø
Glad to know that i helpedā¤ļøMade my dayš„°
Bro This exactly what I feel tooš
