I feel hopeless when expressing myself to others. Why is it that when I speak or have something to say I’m never taken serious or easily overpowered. Even with the ones closest to me. This guy I really like sometimes over powers me in almost every discussion, disagreement or whatever it is and I always find myself becoming submissive in the conversation when I’m the one that initially wanted to talk and express my feelings and self. I just hate how I’m always so open and vulnerable and it goes unnoticed with everybody every time. I always feel like I’m the bad guy and my feelings and thoughts don’t matter and are invalid or At least that’s what people and him make me feel.
Hi, I feel your pain. I wouldn’t say we are on the same boat but yeah a similar one at least. I too love someone but things didn’t workout how I hoped for and there were issues to carry on as friends and there still are. I had a breakdown 2 days back because of them not validating my issues and insecurities. Yesterday they did reassure me that it’s fine which did make me feel better. But later in the night they again lashed out at me bringing everything up calling me someone who doesn’t trust and understand, forgetting how much understanding and trust I showed them when they were at the pit. But this time her lashing out made a fuse go pop and even though it hasn’t even bin 12 hrs but I really feel that I am done…I actually don’t give a shit anymore cause I have given up on the hopes on the things that we had planned and I know its not a happy feeling but f**k these people dude, U do whatever u can more than u can for them but when its their time to validate your feelings it comes to you not being understanding or dumb or the bad guy. No matter how much we still have a life ahead of us and we have the damn right to live it happily!
Thank you for this I appreciate this reply
