I feel guilty for being alive because of my depression and health issues. I think I am a burden to my parents and especially my mom. Sometimes I think the world would be a better place if I wasn’t born in the first place…
I know you won’t be able to imagine this. But try and see a world from a mother’s eye where her son/daughter is not not there. That’s a shity world.
Things do get better.
Things do turn around.
You will feel better
Thank u so much for your care and your comforting words. Very great full to read those lines…
Hey. Don’t stay that. You are never a burden for anyone especially your parents. Things can always change. Your health will be fine, you will be fine. You just have to work on it. Take the first step. You do matter :)
Thank you so much :)
Wanna talk about it ?
Would be very nice
When did this started ?
One year ago I think. I can’t tell you exactly.
But here is the thing: I was born with a heart Dseas and I hand an operation to get it fixed as a little baby. My dad got depression because of that and cheated on my mom. So I feel guilty for that. And wegen we look at Baby Photos from this time everyone cries and is sad. I would love to see my parents smile at some photos of a healthy child instead of seeing me as a sick baby.
Are you still having the heart issue ?
No
How can a baby be guilty about having a heart disease ? He never asked for it he never wanted it. You dad cheated on your mom not because of you.
Its because he’s too weak to handle such strong situation and I’m sure you are way too strong to handle this situation right here.
To fight your depression down ⬇️ and lift up your spirits.
Work on yourself for few weeks despite focusing on parents happiness focus on things that would make you feel good.
I know that a baby can’t be guilty for such things. But I just feel like i am and i can’t tell you why. I try to do the best I can to make myself happy.
Hey that’s okay. Sometimes things are not in our hands and we really can’t do anything about it. We just have to accept it and let it go. I know it’s not easy but we can always try. Isn’t it?
What if she feels this way and you get to know that? Wont you feel bad ?
It applies the same way to you. You are all they wanted. Few or so many people are happy because you are born. You took a brave step to admit that you feel this way.
Cherish the little time you got on this earth and before and after that its just gonna be nothing n just nothing.
This what if not born scenario will cause you more pain dont you think!
My mom once told me that she went to the clinic to get me aborted but my dad stopped her from doing so. One day I was just an unwanted pregnancy and today I am a doctor and the person talking to you.
I go through this scenario often and I ask mom on her face that why dint you get that abortion done.
And I see how bad she felt for saying that.
Lets make the time on earth worth it . One day at a time and one change at a time.
Take care.
I know you are more that your depression and mental health issues. Do u know that ?
First of all I really want to thank you for taking the time to talk to me. I have mercer told anyone that I feel like this. And it feels good that there is someone out there who understands me. How did you overcome this feeling? I Would really appreciate some tips. I’m very sorry that you felt like this sometimes. You are a wonderful person.
You are a brave soul. Seeing the pictures from the childhood and knowing about your parents might be so hard for you.
But in a way it is your story which makes you “you”.
You came a long way from there and your parents bond must be so hard to forgive and move on.
Coming to the point - how I deal with that feeling is -
I tell myself to actually think about how I my parents and friends would feel if I kill myself. Even the people who we merely know would also feel bad for us and it would cause trauma in them. Can we do that to them? Sometimes having suicidal thoughts is to protect us by creating some sort of fear in us and try to look at alternate solutions to our problems.
May be its time dear to give up all the traumatic memories and cherish what you have.
Get professional help if it is possible. Therapy is helpful.
You were a sick baby but not now.
How old are you ?
Your parents stay together ? Do they talk to each other ? And if yes do they laugh or smile at each other while talking ?
Yes my parents are still together and married. They do get along well with each other.
So sweet that’s called love.
They love you so much and they are happy that you are part of their life.
You are right must be true love ❤️ and I love them both so much!
Don’t force yourself to be happy, small and easy steps towards happiness. You are a wonderful person I can say just by sharing few messages. Who love his/her parents so much.
And they love you back so so much.
Take care of yourself and keep posting things here. Whenever you feel like talking or sharing to someone about your day.
Thank u so much! You are a wonderful person too! And thank you for taking the time to talk with me. Take care and keep on going with helping people that’s a wonderful talent that was gifted to you :)
Thanks to you for sharing it with me. feeling so good after talking to you.
And yes I’ll do that whenever I’ll come across beautiful person like you. :)
Listen to your favourite song before going to bed.
Good night
I feel good too :) I loved to share with you. Always Remember you are a wonderful person! Yes I will do that!
Good night :)
