I feel exhausted and irritated around my parents .. lately it has increase to a point am not able to control like before... I know that it is cause of so much of pent-up guilt that backfired and is now anger... It sort of justifying.. before I never used to show it.. I wonder why suddenly I am showing it as if am comfortable in showing my this side..  as if they are going to be as understanding as they were with my sister...
They don't deserve me and I don't deserve them... Relationship full of guilt from my end atleast. Were they always understanding? If they were why did I feel such unfair treatment between me and sis... I don't wanna be comfortable with them eniught to be irritated and feel endless guilt



Hey, I think just letting your emotions come out is really important, but  there can be a peaceful way to  go around things.

Parenting

what you mean?

Breakup

It's been months....one would say that's too long a time period to be stuck on someone who wasn't even with you. But it isn't just a crush, it never was a crush she's the first girl Ive really loved(I'm 18) and people say get over it get over her you didn't mean anything to her and doesn't even know your name without knowing the fact that I know every small detail about her. I know it's pathetic I've been attached to someone who doesn't even talk to me but it just doesn't seem possible for me to get over her no matter how hard I try. This obsession(not the creepy stalker type) has been really hampering my life. My mental health is shit I've become conscious of everything I do and I've begun to think I'm not worthy of anything and at the same time it has lead me to deny some of the people who were actually into me. Wtf is wrong with me...

Crush

You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say..

*complete the song 🙃

Music

I’m so tired… I should’ve of listened to them when they told me to get help when I was younger. Now it caught up with me. I have no choice now but to deal with these issues within myself. I longer feel like myself. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m scared that she’s gone forever. I wish I was like other women, confident in who they are and the ones who don’t care what others think. They are confident in who they are and move on a special frequency. I wish that was me. The anxiety I get from even thinking about creating friendships with people is exhausting. I can’t trust anyone and when I try to socialize with anyone just even a little I feel terrible after. They say try to put yourself in uncomfortable situations so you can grow but when I do force myself it just makes me feel worse after every time. It doesn’t feel like it gets better like people say. I want to heal but how can I when I don’t know how to. I feel stuck.I’ve been feeling stuck for a long time now. It’s not I can see the light above me but I can’t seem to reach it. I’m held down. I’m so tired of fighting this battle. It gets so lonely. Everyone around me seems to have it together and if they go through something in life they get through it it seems like I just stay stuck. I don’t understand. 

3am Thoughts

Anyone to talk !?

(Don't start with how are u,how is ur day ...etc)🙃

Choose between 

Adulting

I am tired of this inequality thing/toxicship with her. We aren’t in a relationship yet, we look like are but we aren’t aka complicated-ship. Today, I called her to ask her for fashion advice and before that I asked her in a nice manner proper tone upon where she at cuz I didn’t want to be rude or disturb brunch with her mom. She got all defensive saying why you asking and she doesn’t like about me asking and told me not to ask her again but she told me that she is at gym(working out) and told me not to ask her again. BUT when it comes her asking me she asked me whenever she want/she feels like it yet I didn’t say anything nor complain but tell her where I am. I am starting to not get it at all of this and confused. What should I do?I asked her cuz she been asking me before and didn’t thought it would be an issue and plus she talked equality a lot so i thought it would be ok. 

Stress

Anyone studying or studied political science?

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