I feel alone. If I look at my non-expressive and under- communicative partner…from my dysfunctional family or his dysfunctional family…
To all my friends so called cousins n friends…do I have anyone who truly cares for me?
My own parents are extremely abusive, toxic, dysfunctional…
No one even bothers to check up on me.
No so called friend also bothers to check on me if I’m fine livin’ alone amidst these times and how am I doing?
Have they got tired listening to me cope up from my cptsd of family abuse (physical, mental) and judged me to be untrying and negative? Like many have said indirectly too…that I should come out of it and accept it all …wtf as if it’s as easy.
I’m hating life. I had almost come out of depression and began to feel loved, take care of myself and all… but it creeped in again laat night when I found my dad had begun to lie about seeing a therapist (I know years of being emotionally numb and in denial n seeing much it’s not easy but today after long…when I woke up…I woke up, that why did I.
I do have one therapy session today evening, it’s a part of an initiative, idk if it will be regular.
My work is also very slow… and I am aware all the depression I had managed to kick away in the past few days, I am aware those feelings creeping in :/
I feel hopeless, very alone, unheard, unseen and lost. :(
Am I loved? Am I cared for? Am I understood?
And I saw someone share about how a loss of one of their professional and close friends is a huge loss for the entire organization family and all… it put me thinking after my above sharing, that will anyone miss me if when I’m not there.
I feel tired and exhausted and hopeless and so annoyed with people and their denial… and I wonder, will I be a loss for anyone?
Hello thank you for reaching out. how have you been?
Not Good. I feel flahsbacks of my parents’ behvaiour, their words don’t stop haunting me and i feel extremely alone living here in my pg. My parents are very apathetic. :(
It cripples me to know it
Yes ofcourse.i’m doing that…But it’s easier said than done na. You know they are parents…and currently all this has made me so sensitive if random people say something, i tend to take it tomy heart but then i let go. This is my own parents… for them…i can’t even have feeling like being hurt wtf. Broken man!
Thanks for your message…means alot
Hey,
1stly what I wana say is… Self love is the key of every small initiative…
As it’s the most prior thing to anyone…
No matter family, frnd, or any near dear one. But what comes first is YOU. Love yourself buddy. Take care of urself… Do what you like. No matter what others will think.
So coming to the last point of therapist . Don’t be afraid yr… They are just like a frnd… Either it be a counselor or psychiatric or therapist. They are just like a friend. And why we are afraid naturally because. It’s wat we had been taught… Mental issue h. To pagal h… It’s all Bullshit… Apne friend se we share stuff… To tb b hum pagal hue, if not thn why with a counselor case… It’s a stereo type. That’s all… You just take chill pill.
