I feel alone and have nobody to talk and share my thoughts..I live with my parents who are nice and caring but I can't talk to them like my friends as we have difference in opinion everytime we discuss anything. I feel like I am living a 60 yrs old life after retirement and it bothers me sometimes. Also I am been pressurized to get married but not finding the right partner, which is an add-on pressure and stress. I am frustrated and can't keep my sane.
I feel emotions like fomo, low motivation, exhaustion, would never find true love, genuine people, have to compromise big time and the uncertain future scares me, difficult life ahead.
My mental health is poor.

Hey 
I'm listening to u 
Say everything and I'll listen to u as much as u want till when ever u want today tomorrow every day I'll listen 

Hello bro....whoever you are... remember you are the right place there are so many people who are just like you but never feel alone we are here to listen you out...yaad jarur kr skte ho...okay !!...so from now onwards friends !! 😌

Depression

Ahhh holi bhi khel li ..ab fir se whi boring din🥲

3am Thoughts

Anyone? Getting bored 

All i did is to impress others......but i realised i am only damaging myself...and it's takes time to heal ......

Anxiety

Our country has our own language and people speak it with English. Some people speak English only, some don't, and many uses both. And I'm in a poor area of a somewhat "advancing" city. Through lockdown, I never spoke to anyone and mainly interacts with English contents online. I'm one with those people who's got both our country's langauge and English language as my first languages. So I think in English— the voice in my head speaks in English. Obviously, I'm not that bright and my vocabulary is still lacking tons. My English vocabulary is better than the other, though! Through lockdown, not only I think in English, but I seem to be very very very uncomfortable speaking our local language now. I don't even know how to construct a proper sentence anymore. I, of course, do my very best to speak it. But it's all in vain. It's so awkward for people who initiate conversations with me. It seems like I'm ignoring them because I don't speak. I can't, rather. I can't just blurt out English, too. In my area, it's uncommon to use English in a daily basis unless in schools and workplaces. People would think you're looking down on them and that you think too highly of yourself. They'd definitely think it's odd and rude. I can't even do it in front of my relatives because they had always seen me as the dumb kid. If I speak English so suddenly, they'd thinki I'm some genius or something. Which is not true. It's kind of the same as "Oh you have an iPhone, are yOu RiCh?" I'm simply speaking the same way everyone does. Well, it's true that I have a genius in me (ho ho ho 🤥). I act dumber than I am because I don't want to be treated "special". I'm having enough at school. And believe me, no one wants that shite. I'm literally just the same as everyone else. Basically, I fake my brains to avoid attention 😑. I WANT TO SPEAK. But I don't want to relearn our local language. People misuse it anyway. No one speaks the proper way anymore that it sort of made me lose interest and at some point, detest this language. What I want is to be able to speak in my comfort language without being judged. That's why I'm changing countries! Someday, surely. — That. Or I work my heels off to the centre of this city. Where it's normal to speak English on a daily basis. Where the damned riches reside. Ah.. I'll just change countries afterall..



Discrimination

I just had a breakup with my ex a dat before our 1 year anniversary. It was the worst thing I could have done, but i was losing feelings... and i felt bad stringing her alone. And after that i am feeling so empty and alone... i still think it was the right thing but it still hurts.

And a couple of days ago i got an offer from my job to become a manager. But it felt wrong to take the job due to how i am feeling right now. And now it feels like i have lost a great opportunity.. what should i do?

Breakup

tw: talks abt death

here's a story i wrote let me know what u think:

Once upon a time there lived a girl who was in love with Death. The girl was beloved by all those around her, boys and girls alike swooned and fell to their knees when she ambled past. Despite this, the girl loved Death. She threw herself in harm’s way time and time again, trying to reach her long-lost lover. But Death refused to let the girl part ways with her own world, and each and every time Death took the girl by her hands and walked her back to the veil between their worlds. Many times, Death and the girl walked hand in hand, whispering words of endearment to each other, as they neared the edge of the world. Many a time, Death watched as her lover left her arms and strode back into the other world once again. For this girl was no ordinary girl, she was life incarnate, unable to reunite with her forbidden lover, Death. 

Love

Anybody watched 'The Great Indian Kitchen'? 
I watched that a week ago and since then I really feel guilty. Even though I do my own chores, I feel like I'm not doing enough. My mom is a homemaker, now I know why she is frustrated and regrets listening to my grandmother and getting married at 18. That movie perfectly summarised my mom's life except for the period taboo and superstitions. 

Movies

Don’t even feel like crying rn just wanna die
I wish I didn’t have siblings or parents so I could die without hurting anyone else

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