Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I drank like a psycho,
Every night i wanted to be a little distorted,
Even when i was dating the most beautiful women,
Nothing calmed me down,
Not even alcohol,
Every night and day, i drank a little too much to be engulfed into that pain,
Pain felt more enjoyable and addictive than ever happiness was ,
A little some to too much at times to skip another second or to feel another second more,
One day at a time, was i killing time or myself?
Years went by and hobby became a habit,
Careful what you wish for one said, and
Here i am