I don't want to live ....i am lost..life seems meaningless to me...if god appears in front of me i swear i will break every bone of him...if this messy universe really created by him then he must fu*k himself....don't give me lecture about life...i just don't want to live......

It feels like life has proven to you in all possible ways that it is the worst in the creation. So my question is, 'If it has been so worst to you, are you gonna give up and spare it, rather than teaching it a lesson?'
Not a good choice, you need to rethink... 

Depression

Please make better choices in life. Please. 

3am Thoughts

Sexual feelings, what to do except masturbation..? 

A guy loves me a lot I think i have never got such care not even from my family .i am from ambala city  working in multi venture. I rejected him back years ago but now i feel he is the right one because of trust and care he has shown to me is like blessings to me . But what if his parents didn’t agree later on ? I don’t think he can take a stand ? Really confused 🫤 what to do ? If i show up any sign of interest to him , he will say yes for sure but what about the later part?

I don't know what can I say, this feeling just haunting me everynight. It has happened for few days. So I am a student of college, at the first the thing is I failed to get into one of the best university in my country but still fine after that. Then I applied to private university that is pretty good too. Before I apply to this private university I changed my major many times, It's like I can't choose what's good for me when I go to university. My parents lowkey force me to become take law or doctor, but I rejected them but they're still understand me. Then I decided to take administration business as my major, but the thing is I got into the university kinda took a long time and that what made me didn't know that the first day of college has started. I know that my college has started because of my friends that got into the same university as me has started her class. Then I was panicking but then I started to getting better, then there is someday when my university admission has given me the wrong information about pay the bill for my university then I panicked again but surely that was getting better as the time goes. And this is when I feel depressed about myself for a couple days, I don't know since when it started but there was the day when I think a lot of things. I started to think is this the right decision? what will happen to me in the future? will I make my parents proud of me? will I be proud of myself? Can I go through all of these things? Will I be successful in the future? what if I fail? The thing is I can't go back anymore, I've wasted all of my parents money for my college for my study, I don't really wanna disappointed myself, my parents. I don't know, I always want that bad things to disappear but it just come to me over and over again, until I cry every night because of that. Sometime I just think that it's not the right decision, sometimes I just think that I wanna leave this world so I couldn't think of that thing anymore, but I still have my mind to keep myself alive. And even I have a good family doesn't mean I could tell them my story, because I think I should just be happy that I have this wealthy life but actually it's not as easy as what it looks.

Life's a mess!! 
I even don't know why am I feeling like this!!?

Board exams over finalllyyy..🥳🎉
Went out with family after years 🤩❤️... Day spent well 💕💫


Family

when your mental health takes over ur entire life and changes your personality completely to this unlovable person.

Is it normal to wish I still had my eating disorder

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