Rex Wrter @gaeds
I don’t want to die… I want to quit everything I do and someday, if I do that, living just won’t make sense anymore. I don’t want to continue feeling like I am at the bottom of the list, I don’t want to watch people get better and better as I lose hours, days and years… The things that made my life enjoyable, they were a story told in despair, a song crying, and now, I can’t even tell if they are me finding the true me, or if it was just me passionately watching flowers blooming all along. Even now, it is unclear, I can’t see what is ahead of me, the blessing that I was grateful of is left behind, And now I really just want to quit, I don’t want to mess around. People who get better will reach the blue rose, get closer and closer in every step of the way. Meanwhile I just get worse and worse. I really want to quit singing, drawing, everything.
gg @genwinxbruh
Hey rex, i don’t get why u wanna quit drawing and singing and all, i see u wanna pursue something seriously
gg @genwinxbruh
correct me if i am wrong
Rex Wrter @gaeds
I can’t get better at it. I’ve been singing for years at this point and my voice only got worse… It’s not like constantly seeing other people get appreciated, people that work work just as much as me if not less will motivate me. Even if I get better somehow, the people around me aren’t likely to get any better. Some people are just quite lucky and have supportive people around them. I don’t even have money to buy a decent microphone. It isn’t just that. With drawing, it isn’t as bad as that, but seeing other people do better and humiliate people with dreams really made me grow out of that. I don’t really want to do it anymore. I wish I could start everything again and ignore other people but that just isn’t possible for me.
