Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I don’t want any one to support me. I think that I am just a dual personality person.
I am addicted to porn and masturbation. Because of this bullshit habit I have ruined my life. I do not enjoy anything. I feel disconnected with my family, friends, society, career.
I just got in it at age 11 but that is not the concern. It is just like I can not live without it. I have tried to escape from this habit but I doubt that I have really tried to quit it. Because after leaving for sometime I think that there is no problem. It’s normal and I do this bullshit.
Until now it was OK that it was a lone task. But now it’s growing .
I can leave anything for this. Now a days it is like that I am showing the wrong path to others. As I am addicted to a website called Omegle . There I did vulgar talks with other person. It is unknown that the other side person is mature or not. When I talk being genuinely I am dismantling the image of my country and when I hide my identity and talked with false identity it is also where I am spreading vulgarity and doing wrong.
These deeds are done by me knowingly.
At this moment I dont think that I have become a good person.
I will never be the good person…

You can abuse me as I am spreading vulgarity in society and making it a negative.
It is also clear that it’s my dual personality that is doing wrong and then weeps crocodile tears and again do the wrong.