I dont want any advice or rude comments. Just wanted to vent. And know that I’m not alone and maybe what I’m about to say is fine and maybe that I’ll be able to forgive myself? My guy cheated on me. And it was my first relationship. He told me he wasn’t thinking and he vibed with the girl. He called her pretty. He said he was sorry. He said I meant too much to him and he never did anything beyond a kiss. I eventually got back with him because what do you do when the first guy who genuinely made you so happy and whole, still shows up for you after everything. He was my best friend. We had an amazing relationship later. We recently broke up and I realise that I had been carrying the baggage of that incident for so long. It broke me down. I cried. I’m still crying. I lost my best friend and thus baggage won’t leave me now. I feel like I’m a joke. My feelings were a joke? Like how could I allow myself to do that and how will I ever forgive myself for any of it.
i can feel.ur pain heart breaking i was in the same situation too we just want someone to listen not to advice us or judgement
Hey there!
I exactly know what you feel
It’s damn hard to lose someone that close. It would be heavy. I have been there.
I fell in love with my boy best friend. We were a gang of 4.
Long story short, my boyfriend and my girl friend together cheated on me. It wasn’t easy. We were in different cities. He was the first guy I trusted and when I came to know this, I was broken. I was younger then. I didn’t know how to handle it. Days were so hard. I kept questioning where did I go wrong.
I gave him a chance because I wasn’t able to bear the pain. But that was a very bad decision. Things weren’t the same. Eventually we decided to part ways. It took me years to come out of that trauma. But one day I knew I was over it. And that was THE best day in life.
No matter how good a person you are, things happen. Some things aren’t in our control.
I lost hope in friendship and love there. I became insecure. And when I found the love of my life, a sweet guy, I messed up completely. I regret about it even today.
I know you feel like sinking. But that guy DOESN’T DESERVE YOU AND YOU DESERVE BETTER. Don’t let this guy consume you. Please. You are much more than this. Divert yourself. Be that ambitious girl. You’ll definitely meet ‘the one’. Untill then, remember you ARE STRONG! MUCH MORE THAN YOU THINK!
SENDING LOVE AND HUGS :)
THIS just saved me from a bad night just before a major exam and I couldn’t be more grateful ! I’m working on it. Thankyou for taking out time to write this. I’m going to read this everytime I feel like I’m going back in that space. You’re so kind :')
You deserve all the love :) good days ahead!
