I don’t know why I keep doing this. Sweeping my feelings under the carpet, trying to fool everyone and myself that I am better, thinking that if no one saw me cry or scream or having a meltdown being in absolute mentally agony that that meant I was ok, I truly believed that, but now I realise it doesn’t mean I’m ok, Just because they can’t see my pain doesn’t mean it’s not real. People think I’m better but I’m not. I don’t know how to be ok, I can’t fix this I thought I could but I can’t.
I am with you. I have no idea. My parents think that why would I even have problems or why would I even be sad? My friends don’t know cause when I try to tell them it feels like they listen to me, only because they have to, and not cause they want to. It feels worse when you feel alone and sad even when you have people around you
Did you tried talking to the people who are close to you?
