I don’t know what to say, I’m surrounded by the same expectations everyday. To be the golden child, the best. Finish school and become some good. I wasn’t even wanted to be a girl, my family hates me, but still expects the best from me. Every argument where I mention that I ruin everything, they always agree. I get very clingy and emotional, which drives people away from me. I hate it, everyday. I do one little thing wrong and everyone goes off on me. Why can’t I just escape. I’m taking classes to be an EMR but I also still have a year left in school till I can further the training. I told my parents I want to be in the medical field long ago, so of course they would only expect the best from me. I caused my own demise.😐
Let’s not mention that I’ve told everyone, besides my dad and his family, that I’m pan. Like they know, they just don’t mention it. But when I get a boyfriend they asked if I was still gay. So to make them happy I said, “Right now? Yes.” I didn’t realize how toxic my family was when it came to the subject of MY sexuality.