I don’t know what to do or what to say. I have been married for about 1.5 years and I have everything which a normal person dream of. but still, I am not happy. Feels like I kind of miss myself. I smile, laugh and do everything which everyone expects but I am not happy and most important I am afraid that no one can understand this so I cannot say anything to anyone. I just want to run off. sometimes I feel like I am choking. i don’t know what to do kindly guide.😒
Hey
Do the things which makes you feel alive.
That is the problem. I cannot do things that make me happy. Seems like I don’t have the courage to do those things or maybe not sure whether they are right or wrong.
Hey
You can tell me what exactly you are going through
Why don’t you start with sharing a few details as well.
it’s just I don’t understand why I am not happy. I have everything what a normal human dream of a like house, job and once I want all these. I am doing my dream job for which I work so hard. only work gives me a bit of happiness but when it comes to personal life I am sick of it. Always taunting for everything from food to room. there is soo much show off where they all said oh we do not believe in showing off and we do not do any show-off. it is so frustrating. they kept lying and I can feel but I do not have any proof as they are so cunning. everyone believes they are so sweet but I know they just showing off and in this showing off i feel like choking.
Oh that pain of feeling entrapped where only you know the reality and devious nature of someone and the rest of the world perceives them in a different manner. I’m guessing at least you have a loving partner by your side. I don’t actually have a way to fix these things just that talking & sharing helps sometimes. As your job gives you happiness so at least don’t leave that in coming days in any case whatsoever. Keep talking, maybe that’ll release some burden.
SEE it is like you are kind of bored with your life you know as being well stable doesn’t make you happy be little bit yourself try something new which makes you happy and be a little bit wild stop your ongoing life have some fun little bit and enjoy your every moment because you don’t know which going to be the last. Be happy!!
I do want to go wild and I do want to try new things and I want to do it all by myself but whenever I start trying something there is peer pressure from my new family that do not do this and all. if you want to do that include your partner. there is no identity of my own. I think I know the answer but afraid to say it out loud. I am sick of their show off. seems like this marriage was a mistake. we couldn’t get when we first met about their show off. we feel they are very sophisticated and nice but now I feel cheated. there is not a single day when there is peaceful lunch or dinner. there is always blah blah blah. its extent is that I don’t want to eat with them as again they start. sometimes it feels like I am not living in a home but in a hospital. every time, don’t eat this don’t eat that. it is so frustrating. and if i say something then its all about stars astrologically. you have to face it no other option. they don’t believe in themselves rather than on astrology. it is so annoying
