I don't know really how I'm feeling. 
it's felt so unmotivate to do anything. 

 it's my first time using this app and it actually made me comfortable to share my feelings which I wouldn't have said to anyone:) 

3am Thoughts

Screaming songs in the car together >>> 

Music

I am not asking for a friend, just venting.
I am 23 but I realised I never had any friend in my life, I just had some people to talk to, be it school or college. Coz of my insecurities, and having a typical father, short tempored and manipulative one I got wrong lessons from him. Though he loves me but still my young yrs got wasted. I never enjoyed my life. And now I am facing many mental health issues. Can't even face the world outside. Everything is fuxked up, Career, social life and personal life. I am exhausted of handling my own mess now. Idk what I am doing with my life. Just waiting for an end to come to get my peace and end this pain and suffocation. 

Life

Feeling like I'm drowning....
Just have to survive looking up. 

Sometimes I really wanna trust everything but I donno why I'm that sensitive,even a this small thing some says about me make me lose confidence in my self , and boom I'm i total bad mood why the heck this society is this much judgmental, can't you let a simple human live.  I mean just manage your business na don't even try to see me .

Lonely

I am restless!! Really worried about the deadlines…And the fact is…that i am not working for completing my work but just worrying that will i be able to complete it…😑😑😑

Adulting

It's difficult these days to explain how am I feeling. Much confused, whether it's happiness or sadness, or even any feeling. Everything seems pale, I started losing interest from everything that usually made me enthusiastic. I even dropped college, quit my studies, left my hobbies, kicked my passion. Feeling like it's totally empty, a void of emptiness. Sleeping became an act of escapism, but before my eyes start feeling tired, I don't want to push myself to sleep, because there I will have to get through so many thoughts, so many memories. I try to indulge myself in my mobile phone, until my whole body start feeling absolute tiredness and sleep, right now, I'm doing the same. I've realised that I'm becoming an escapist. Reality is so dreadful, and I just feel comfortable in escaping from it. I think I need someone to help me, I don't know why but I feel like I can't do it alone this time. I'm trying hard, but I just feel nothing, and feels like this life isn't really a life. I miss old me, who was happy, amazing, lovely. I can't do it alone, but so many incidents made me realise that people are so freaky, selfish and..........
I don't want to trust anyone, anymore. Because after some time, they'll break my trust. So many times, I tried to trust people and I get betrayed, ignored, replaced. I don't know why it's only ne who really cares about the relationship. 
I wish I could get a person like me, but nowadays, it seems impossible. I don't need anybody,. because they all will do the same, after getting my trust

i think i should just disappear so i wouldn’t be a problem anymore (:

Depression

My husbands OCD is killing me aghhhh 😡😩

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