I don't know , I have had a pretty usual day , 11-9 job, and had my dinner , I am okay I guess but I feel little frustrated I don't know why and I also want to cry but meantime I am also thinking maybe I should finish my series but I am doing nothing 

Talk to someone close about how you feel and if not possible talk to a professional. In the meantime watch Upload, it's great and the new season will come out soon so you can enjoy it alongside. Hope it helps :)

Then you need to go pro to understand why it's not helping

I don't know how to do that , or to whom should I talk 

Yeah maybe will do that this weekend , I actually did this with my friends group last weekend but nothing changed 

If I ll go alone I ll blew my mind up bcz. of overthinking and I am living with my parents we do that frequently .

I don't know how to connect if u can help me out 

Anxiety

I wait for the world to end

Life

Does ANYBODY feel the way I feel..trapped, choked up, miserable and lonely? Like, is that all there is to life? I wake up, I work, I sleep. I have no friends, no interests, no hobbies. Nothing brings me joy. I am hateful, I am confused and I am tired.I mean, when I imagined what taking a gap year after my graduation would be like: this was NOT it. This is not what I wanted. This is still not what I want. I want better. I want different/ I think work is only always going to make me sad. I am an artist. II used to paint. I used to CREATE things. I used to CARE about things. But now? Nothing. What do i care about? Nothing. What do I want? Nothing. Does anybody FEEL the way I feel? I feel TOO much. I feel it in my bones and in my soul. Sometimes when my brother is rude to me underneath it all I can literally feel my heart BREAKING into pieces. I feel the weight on my shouders. After doing so much for everyone, all I ask for is a bit of reciprocation. Yesterday my father said: Don't behave like a victim. Ok but what if I am?? I know I am. Doesn't mean I am not FUC*ING powerful. I am a victim of these people's misdoings and misery. I deserve safety. Does anybody feel the way I feel. please tell me I am not alone. That would be the last straw for me. The last straw.

YOLO

It would be best if I disappeared then I wouldn't disappoint so many people and most importantly I could just leave. And no one would know.

Row Row Row your boat gently down the stream

Overwhelmed 

Adulting

It’s the very first day of the new year.. 
ain’t I supposed to be be happy excited enthusiastic and what not ..
But all I’m feeling is numb 
I have no excitement about this life 
All I wanted is some good time in my life .. 
I feel like I’m going through a lot 
I feel like there’s sooo much going on in my head 
I badly want to get these things out of my head 
But I’m scared of people judging me or I’m scared of people betraying me 
I’m the one who there for myself everytime 
I don’t need anyone 
I don’t trust people anymore 
I don’t feel safe sharing what I feel with people 
I wish I could hibernate 


Exhausted

Hii..
I am suffering from OCD about past 9 or 10 year's.
I am unable to handle to my intrusive thought. My mental health is decreasing day by day.i did not get enough sleep from past 4 months. Panic or anxiety attack hits me daily.
Currently I am suffering from existential OCD . A lot of thoughts comes in my mind.which have no importance but they are continuously comes In my mind . I am starting confusing in small small things of life. don't know what is going In my life.if someone who is recovered from this type of OCD .pls help me😖😣.  I feel alone.

Depression

   I fucking hate myself so much, like literally everything I do just goes wrong. Cleaning, my school attention, just school in general, my attitude, just talking, socializing, doing my hair. I talk for like 2 minutes and I somehow make them mad or I have aggravated them. I hate the way I look, how I have always been fat, the way I sound, the way I walk, the shape of my body, my legs, my arms, my jaw, my double chin, the ways my eyes are shaped. I’m almost done with school and I have no fucking clue what to do with my life after it, I want to be successful but school is just not for me I know that for a fact. 

  I’m such a coward too because I don’t have the courage to tell anyone I have been sexual with my father (my biological father left when I have little) for years (since I was 10) and I absolutely hate it and he made me think it was normal, or maybe I’m just such a stupid person probably that’s why I’m failing at everything. You know I shouldn’t be so relieved that I got my period because it mean no sex and that I’m not pregnant. Not the first men to touch me thorough, one of my mom’s boyfriend touched me and I told her about it, she said “oh it’s his culture, it’s not his fault he always gets touchy when he’s drunk.” She didn’t even break up with him for that reason, they broke up because he cheated on her.

    I have no friends and I’m not joking when I go to school the only people I talk to is the teachers. I did have friends though but they all ghosted me and we don’t wave at each other when we see one another in the hallways. The only person I truly trust is my sister, she makes me laugh, and hugs me when we sees me crying, we tell each other everything, well I almost tell her everything…. But honestly I think she is the reason I’m alive today. 
   
    Now my life is not always sad, I do enjoy some things. I like to paint, I like fanfics, my favorite show is supernatural, I absolutely love the sky and the cold weather (fall). I love my cat his name is Tom, he was with me though everything he is there when I cry, when I sleep, when I’m happy, when I paint, and with me when I play Fortnite. I have no idea what I would do without him and have no I idea what to do when I lose him. 

Sorry this is so long but it’s me so yeah um I’m scared to post this….

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