I don’t know how to pull myself out of my depression and everything that has happened this past year has made me isolate myself even more. I am stuck in a job that I hate and literally try to find every excuse not to go. I have one more year but I feel like I can barely continue for one more week. I don’t talk to my therapist anymore because I feel like I am being weak and just chasing myself in circles when I talk like nothing she says helps anymore. On top of all that I recently had a miscarriage and I don’t know how to deal with it. I keep telling everyone I am fine but I am hurting and I am trying not to fall back into that dark space in my head but it’s happening and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to push everyone away but I don’t like being around anyone and have lost all motivation for everything. Please any advice would really help.
AD @addy14
Reasons to live:
1: We would miss you.
2: It’s worth it to be alive.
3: It does get better, believe it or not it will eventually get better.
4: There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5: You are worth it don’t let anyone, even yourself tell you otherwise.
6: God made you for a reason, you have a purpose.
7: There is always a reason to like you may not know it right now, but there’s always a reason to live.
8: So many people care about you.
10: You are amazing
11: I don’t even know you and I love you.
12: I don’t even know you and I care about you.
13: There are plenty of other people that love you.
14: There are plenty of people that care about you.
15: God loves you.
16: God cares about you.
17: Sometimes will be really tough, but it will just make you a stronger person.
18: What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about all the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them if your dead.
19: I want you to be alive.
20: People care about you, they are about you even more than you know it.
21: You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
22: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite song if you die.
23: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite singer if you die.
24: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite rapper if you die.
25: listening to really loud music.
26: Killing yourself is never worth it, you’ll hit both yourself and the people who care about you.
27: There are so many people that would miss you including me.
28: You’re preventing a future generation, your kids, from even being born.
29: You are Gorgeous.
30: Someone out there loves you.
31: How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve your life if you die?
32: Proving people wrong with your success.
33: Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
34: You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.
35: You’ll never have the feeling of waking into a cold building on a hot day.
36: Being stupid in public just because you can.
37: Helping other people.
38: You have a future to live for.
39: Being alive is just real good.
40: Not being alive is just really bad.
41: Finding your soulmate.
42: All Nighters.
43: Sleeping in all day.
44: You can look back at your self later in you life and be glad you didn’t commit suicide.
45: Nobody will ever be like you.
46: Your Unique.
47: Puppies.
48: Puppy Kisses
49: Netflix.
50: Decorating the Christmas tree.
51: The kind of dreams that wake you up and you can’t stop smiling.
52: Breakfast in bed.
53: New Clothes.
54: New Shoes.
55: New books by your favorite authors.
56: Sunrises and Sunsets.
57: Friends.
58: The Ocean.
59: Sunlight that is warm on your back but not too hot.
60: Your Family.
61: Inside Jokes.
62: Birthdays.
63: Christmas.
64: Family Traditions.
65: The taste of your favorite food.
66: Watching your favorite tv show.
67: Watching your favorite Movie.
68: The adventure of going somewhere new.
69: The ability to persue what ever you choose ( there are over 7 billion people on Earth, don’t be afraid to be you )
70: To earn money and rewards.
71: You can always flip your life around.
72: To find the perfect job of career.
73: Pizza.
74: Kittens.
75: New Haircuts
76: Awkward moments you can look back to and laugh.
77: God is Good.
78: The world needs you.
79: Roller Coasters.
80: Showers.
81: Cake.
82: Growing old.
83: Growing old with the person you love.
84: Singing.
85: Sleeping.
86: Ice Cream.
87: Eating warm cookies straight out the oven.
88: Food in general.
89: Movie nights.
90: Candy.
91: Popcorn.
92: Daydreaming.
93: The happy moments.
94: Halloween
95: Sleepovers.
96: Parties.
97: Having a good personality.
98: Making people happy.
99: Bonfires.
100: Sitting on rooftops.
101: Going on vacation.
102: Hearing crazy stories
103:Telling crazy stories.
104: Treehouses
105: Starbucks
106: You’ve changed someone’s live.
107: If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
108: Everyone has a talent including you.
109: Eating crazy food.
110:Hanging out with your friends.
111: Nobody can ever replace you.
112: You have so much to live for.
113: Your dreams need some fulfilling to do.
114: Living life to the fullest.
115: Heck, I would miss you like crazy.
116: Your family and friends would be devastated if you died.
117: Someone out there is constantly praying to meet someone like you.
118: Your future kids will never come to existence of you die right now.
119: You could save someone’s life.
120: You are too beautiful to disappear.
121: You are bigger than any of your problems.
122: You are never alone in this struggle.
123: Tomorrow is another day, please be there to see it.
124: You are worth more than you think.
125: But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, anything could happen.
God bless you <3
AD @addy14
I don’t know who you are. I will be lying if I said I understand what you are going through. But I can tell you one thing. I can relate to you.
But you are not alone. There are beings who will understand you. I have been through a similar situation where I have pushed everyone away even though I didn’t want them to go. I gave up on my therapy as I too felt it wasn’t working out. I could not sleep, I could not eat, I could not drink. I was so depressed that I wanted to just end it all as I felt it could not worse on the other side as it is here now.
But I will tell you what. Believe. Believe in yourself. Believe in God. There are good, loving, caring people around you. You just need one. It will be better. It will only get better. Be strong.
See, I don’t even know you. I don’t even know your name. But I am telling this from the bottom of my heart. I love you. I love you for being so strong. I love you for being so brave. I know it’s not easy to carry on as you have. To put forward a brave face every day while fighting your demons.
So, whenever you feel low. You feel it’s the end, just remember there is someone, somewhere in the corner of the world praying for your well being.
God bless you. Lots of love. :)
Thank you as I’m reading this in tears it’s nice to recognize someone actually cares. <3
