I don't know how to ask for help. I just disappear & come back when I'm good.

Even don't know how to discuss or what to discuss 

I sometimes explain my friends what happened when I am all good but I am always on this self helping mode

3am Thoughts

*Challenges are necessary for the person. because overcoming them makes our life meaningful and exciting.*
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Motivation

A bubbly girl who always smiles and makes others smile with her silly acts
But, 
Now she is all silent
She is dead from inside
But shows the world that she is still the lovely and bubbly girl whom everyone knows. 

Her eyes show pain but nobody can see her pain. 
Her heart cries but nobody can listen to those cries
And just like that one day someone came and saw the pain, tried to take away every pain of hers 
But, 
They didn't know she was so broken that nobody is able to put those pieces back no matter how hard they try. 

- Ishita


What y'all do when someone suddenly stops talking with you..like we were good but suddenly someone has stopped talking with me and I didn't text that person either...like I saw it coming....we used to talk  everyday and then he started avoiding me for some days and then stopped talking with me...it ended like it never happened...we were there and in the blink of an eye it all ended without any reason....sometimes nothing makes sense...specially people ...ahhhh 🤦‍♀️also ever since he's gone I no longer have the courage to be with anyone...even the small talk with someone irritates me...I feel like I don't have any feelings left for anyone...I'm just like breathing...I just want to feel nothing...I'm good at being lonely...

Day 30 of praying. 

Affirmations

Choose one

Adulting

It’s my first time and I just cannot speak to anyone I know about all that I am feeling because I’m really really scared their going to think I’m crazy, exaggerating and making too many assumptions. I also think that about myself too sometimes which is why I’m so scared to tell anyone. 
I live in japan where there are jokes about killing and saying stuff like “die” and people think it’s a joke and laugh about it. I’m quite sure that the society I am in right now has made me feel so much more insecure and enclosed. 
I think I just need to get at least some of it off my chest by sharing on a platform where maybe at least one person may understand. 
I am not bullied, I have a very nice family, I go to a good private school and is really should be happy I think, but little things have built up inside and I think it’s all exploding right now.
I have been self harming, crying a lot, shaking for no reason, having quite a bit of suicidal thoughts. 
I’m not sure how to overcome it because I feel like there is nothing that can be done for me. 
Sorry it’s so long. I just wanted to get some out there 

Depression

I am in a tough spot right now. My boyfriend of almost 2 years will be moving to another city in 2 or 3 months roughly and I don't know how to deal with it. He is only one year older than me but he is so much more accomplished than I am, which makes me insecure since he will be leaving. I sometimes think that I am not good enough for him anymore and I am just a burden in his life since he is so busy but always tries to make time for me even when he is beyond occupied which makes me feel even worse to ask for his attention or help when I am feeling down because he does not need more stress in his life. He is a full time student with 2 jobs and while before it used to be okay to just see him once a week or like once every 2 weeks I just starting wanting to see and talk to him more because he told me he was leaving and that has created conflict in our relationship. I sometimes feel jealous of my friends and their relationships, and how they are able to have so many things and special moments with their boyfriends. I am scared to be in a long distance relationship. I love him and he is legitimately the best thing to happen to me in a while.  

Long Distance Relationship

Feels like somewhere hurted by nearest one 

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