I don’t feel good about being dependent on my family financially I am 22 and want to be independent but this vividh thing is messing up with my head sometimes it feels like okay!! This to shall pass but sometimes it’s worst I feel I all is is getting me nowhere and it triggers me and I start over thinking about it . I try to keep my thoughts positive but still some days are worst than the others . Deep down I know this is just a phase this to shall pass . Just trying to keep myself calm .