i cry a lot and i dont understand why sometimes i’ll just be crying because of my mother and father i lived with them when i was younger my dad was deported when i was 5 and my mother was sent to prison when i was 9 my grandparents have been taking care of me and my brothers and i’m really thankful for them but i’ll catch myself crying about them and i know it’s not my fault my parents are not in my life i’m tied of hearing people tell me that i just wish i had that mother daughter bond that father daughter bond and you might say ohh well you have your grandparents for that but i never get that type of bond with them i get more of the loving grandparents bond and yeah i’m grateful for that but it’s like i really don’t have anyone to talk about that “boy stuff” or like my “high school life” to because they won’t understand and my grandparents are getting too old now and it’s scaring me because that’s soon gonna mean that i’m going to have to stop relying on them and they are gonna be relying on me i started my first job a month ago and i didn’t think it would be as much work as they are putting me i’m only 14 and i’m working basically a full time job i only get 2 days off out of the whole week and my friends are always wanting me to go out with them and i feel like i never get a brake but i do i always get the right amount of sleep but i’m scared of growing up and a lot of girls my age are trying to act even more grown and i don’t understand because i’m afraid of the world
Its okay to cry young warrior. First thing never compare your life to anyone not even your friends. What you have is great. How old are your grandparents and how are they financially and medically?..Also since you are 14 only, its really important that you focus on education, start your story from this very moment so that when the time comes every single college rolls out their carpet for you with full scholarships and all the relevant aids. You have time at your hand to show the world that how you went through so much and still prevailed. Don’t think of the current situation as final rather think of this as how strong this will make you later. And yes you might feel down not able to talk to anyone about somethings, maybe try talking to your friends. Be honest and don’t force your image as strong/resilient person, that you are naturally.
