I can't make friends easily and when I do, i would distance myself or make them feel like I don't care about them intentionally and then regret it but won't apologize and then become sad that I can't trust anyone when I am the one who never shares anything. 

Someday u will have a friend that will understand the way u are... Open up yourself

Life

It's so hard when you have a very one sided friendship, it is like you give everything and get nothing back, they only contact you when they want something or are feeling low. They stopped asking how I was, stopped asking about my life, I can't lie, it hurts, and it's a very exhausting and emotionally draining existence, when you are there for everyone always, but when it comes to when you need someone, you realize there's no one to call. 

I always tell my friends how i feel , they never pay attention , i cried in-front of them and they didn’t ask me what’s wrong , i needed them , they were never there for me , but i still love them

Depression

Let's create fake scenarios 

Acquaintance

Hello everyone
The thing is that, I have never been a person of many friends. My social skills are not very good either, but I have always been a responsable and dedicated person. The point is that when we are assigned to do group work, I do not find people to do it, neither does anyone invite me to their group and something that integrates me  is that before they invited me. I wonder if I've done something wrong, I know that I shouldn't give so much importance to what other people  think, but I don't know ... what did I do to make this happen?
Suddenly because of the way I respond to messages, but it is not on purpose, what happens is that I do not express myself well through text messages. I am very sorry if anyone was offended by my response.
Thanks for reading 

Friends

Hey everyone! I'm new to this app so please bear with my message because it maybe a long one.

Just over a month ago, I left my discord server where I spent 25 months trying my level best(as a person with crippling social anxiety) to make lifelong friends.
I didn't just make that move overnight; I love them all but it was increasingly beginning to feel like I didn't belong there anymore(or that I never did in the first place, idk). They always tried to be nice and considerate towards me but it all seemed like a charade they put on so that they dont have to blame themselves for it.
When I left, just one person messaged me to ask me if I was okay and it truly felt like nobody cared.
However, when I approached some of them they were nice to me as usual when I told them I want to seek professional help for my social anxiety(which, again, felt superficial).
I would like to believe that once I work on myself(which is why I want to begin here), I can give them a disease of mine they deserve who they can count on for as long as I am available.
I have not been going through the best of times even otherwise since I got laid off from my first job send thst has created a financial standstill. 
Any help and advice will be greatly appreciated. 😊



Social Anxiety

Me and my bestfriend drifted apart after we caught feelings for each other knowing we couldn't go back to normal.I broke up with my ex for her.I literally have no one to talk to. I was feeling low and called up a few friends some had classes on a sunday which they usually don't.. nvm excuse accepted.. the rest had to sleep or watch a cricket match or play a game 🎮. I literally told them I need to talk and needed them and they didn't find what I tried to say to be important. My ex or my bestfriend both isolated me from my friends and for them their friends were important but mine weren't.  I lost a few people who were important to me because I couldn't be there for them. I have been manipulated by them that they'd always be there for me and I don't need others . Yet they were the ones to leave me alone. I have lost most of my friends I have been trying to make new friends but can't find the same or atleast similar bonds. I feel lonely sometimes. Another big problem is that I keep letting in people from past again and again they just use me and dump me. Each time when I think I've moved on someone from past comes in. They always come back in situations where I am very much vulnerable. Now I have a friend whom I considered to be like a sister who exploited and extorted me..I don't have siblings so I love my friends like they are my family-a lot of people know this and take advantage of this. I let people come back thinking they've changed or they are irreplaceable because they just happen to be at my worse times but they are no good for me. Since I've already let them I want to distance gradually else it would be rude.but dealing with any further will disturb me mentally 

Lonely

I am neither happy nor sad.
I don't know what I'm feeling.
I want friends but i don't think I am able to maintain friendships. I have a lot of friends like a lott.
But in the last month I lost two of my closest friends.
And since then I keep on wondering if something is wrong with me?
I don't really know.....

I’m new. Can’t bring myself to pay for a therapist, so here i am. got fired from my job like 3 days ago. Was told they couldn’t trust me because i called out for having stitches and being in the hospital all night the night prior. After 9 months of spending 40-50 hour weeks at this restaurant and now they want to tell me they can’t trust me. i really couldn’t care less about the job but i had made my best friends there. i went from seeing them every single day to haven’t seen them since i last worked. they are all working a lot so its gonna be hard to see them anymore especially when i get a new job. i hate change. i’ve been kind of a wreck. these friends were my family. never had friends like them. not sure how to move forward. 

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