i can’t handle this!!! I’m sick of being treated as second best, so I’m sick of being jealous. I’m sick of being sick and I’m sick of missing out! I’m tired of it all! They eat all my food, take my friends, get the guys that I like and even take my dreams from me. I’m so fucking sick of it all I kinda want to die just to find some fucking peace! I want to scream and tear things apart the way they’re tearing apart my soul, but they don’t even give a fuck. My so called family. I’m sick of all this pain.
Don’t be too harsh on yourself, you deserve better, a life that will cherish the way you are and appreciate you but you have to be strong, just cut off those negative people not yourself.
You can talk with me if you need any help
thank you so much, but I can’t cut these people out. They’re my family, and while they can be shitty, they do care. It’s all just so hard and I’m not coping. Life is pretty rough rn. Thanks for listening to me, it means a lot, nice words :)
If you have any hobby just try to devote more time towards it, all I’m saying is that just add more positivity around you, read a great biography or a beautiful movie, these hard time may feel like ####, but I believe you will live a beautiful life and its waiting for you but only when you take that leap of faith.
I get it…I’ve destroyed a lot of drywall for various reasons when I was in a similar situation. Had similar thoughts now and then. Not worth it…there are people who care…just maybe not in your zone right now. I’d rather hear you broke something…then went to the gym and beat the hell out of a speed bag or took a hammer to a nail in a piece of crap wood and pounded it through the board…then destroyed the board with that…than hurt yourself. I can hear/feel your anger through the screen.
That’s really nice that atleast uk thats theres some problem n it’s need to be fixed u have 2 choices here
1 Become frustrated, irritated, angry or uu can work on the solution
2 How can I change myself
U can never change others
But u can change urself n don’t try to make a drastic change try to add small things like a kind act daily , a genuine compliment or practice gratitude it will help u to be happy
Try to just make small changes it will have a great impact in longterm
