Elvira Stevens @elvira
I can not do this no more honestly, its me my mom and my brother. We have lost all family due family problems. And now you’re telling me my brother is going to move across the world? The only reason I didn’t end it all was because of him. And now you’re telling me this? Honestly I cant believe it I am so mad but at the same time I cant blame him, I would get away from here too. But I can not do this no more. I have to get out, but then my mom would be alone and go after me. Honestly what is this position I am in. I can NOT do this. I have to start my own life too I know, I am 15. But I can not do that, they took years from me that I can not take back. So how am I supposed to feel better or get my shit together? I can not focus on school or even go to school a full week. I can not talk about how I feel or do anything. And I do not like therapists. So at this point I give up. I just want to get out, get out off all this mess. We do not have much money either since my mom fell into depression some years ago. So no good income, nothing new (that’s fine by me). But of course I will get judged by other kids, no friends. I have big dreams, but I am not able to follow them with the position that I have got. Maybe it will change? Probably not. I. Need. To. Get. Out.
