I am tired of being alone.
I had just one friend that I thought was my real friend, but recently they informed me that I am just a person they did not want to be rude to, they were never my friend.
I am sure a lot of people have social anxiety, but at least they have a friend? A best friend? All I need is one best friend that I know would call me their best friend as well, but my social anxiety and fear of talking to people stops me.
I used to have a best friend. We had known each other since birth since our mothers are best friends. He would lowkey bully me, but then say that ‘they are jokes’ and I ‘need to chill’. But those words cut deep into my skin, or were the reason I cut deep into my skin. I didn’t talk up about it because I didn’t have anyone else that wanted to talk to me so I felt lonely. And then one day, he made fun of me for having a mental breakdown. That was enough. I didn’t need a bully to be my best friend, so I stopped talking to him. Later I learned that he didn’t care because he already had someone that would be his best friend.
And now every time I open my phone, I check my messeges and snaps to see if someone had realized that they can be friends with me and I can finally have a friend. And sometimes I just lie down with my phone in hand waiting for someone to remember of my existence.
Yeah it is kinda pathetic, I know.
Hey if he makes fun of your health then. He isn’t you best friend and if you are looking for a friend I’m happy to be your friend you can tell me everything and what every problems you are facing I will listen and I’m really sorry that you went through this alone
Thank you dearly💕
So you wanna be friend I would be happy to be your friend
Rajdev @rajdev
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Hey there! We’re here for you! You know, things like these are out of our control… Things related to family, childhood… We can’t chose… But you can do that when you grow up… I am sure you will find like minded people who’ll love you for who you are… Hang on… Try to socialise more so you ll improve your chances of running into friends who’ll cherish you. I am so sorry you had to go through all of that but feel free to share anything here, I am listening!
Hellow fellow social anxiety host😄
Hello there, you are anonymous here, but I am pretty sure you have a wonderful name and a wonderful personality. Let me start by acknowledging one thing, the pain you are going through, I can relate to that. As I too have zero friends, was betrayed by a best friend and left alone. Perhaps my problem was worse as I live in a family which is toxic and I don’t have a healthy relationship with my parents.
Each person on this planet, deserves a friend, a soulmate. A best friend is not a generic term. It means a person who makes your life better, meaningful. Who even sometimes scolds you for a mistake or fuck up you did. Let me tell you one thing- timing never means someone is your bff. You can meet someone tomorrow and that guy can end up being your bff but not the guy next door with whom you played since childhood.
Best friends make you feel safe, comfortable- like a therapist. You can rant all your issues to them and they listen without judgement. They don’t mock you for your failures or problems. You always know one thing about your bff, that this idiot is going to stuck with me in every problem of my life!! The guy you mentioned, as per your text, seems to be unfit for even a decent human being sample- best friend is a distant thing. If he mocked you for having a breakdown, it is his idiotic temperament to life.
Dear anonymous, before making someone else your friend, please be your own friend. Firstly applaud yourself for getting out from the clutches of a bully. You did a great service for yourself. You should be proud of that. Life is long, and a good person like you, will one day surely find a friend to die for. But till then, you have to check on yourself for being alive. You can even connect to people on this platform.
Get a dog if you suffer too much from loneliness, if you can. They are wonderful creatures and you will know the real meaning of friendship and kindness…
You can even ping me if you have anything to rant. I am a great listener as a matter of fact. All the best. Virtual Hugs!!
Thank you so much… I read this an hour ago, got off my computer and took a walk. The things you said- it made me realize that it is near damn impossible to find someone that would love and cherish me as a friend if I don’t do it to myself first. Thank you, dearly, your message might have just changed my life.
