I am so sick of people showing double standards in the name of being woke. 

Discrimination

Hey Reader,
So there was a girl with whom I used to talk a lot. We used to play games with each other shares memes daily. I have the same taste so during lockdown we used to listen our favorite songs with each other on discord. The sense of understanding we have built by talking to each and knowing each. At one moment I felt she's the one girl I haven't her about my feelings for a long time but I felt I can't afford to lose her so I confessed about my feelings and told her everything which I feel about her but she denied and we can be friends. I apologized her because I was afraid to lose her even as a friend. She said we'll be friends don't worry and after few days she started ignoring me and now she talk to me anymore.
Moreover she don't respond to anything.
Did I done something wrong?

If you read this till now I am grateful to you for reading my story :)


Friends

It’s been 9 years in relationship with him. We had so much of fights, arguments, misunderstandings etc but lots of love between us helps forget all those . In all these 9 years past three years are just amazing . We have come so much close to each other that even a small silence makes our day worse . He went on a small vacation kind of thing . From then situations between us changed a lot . Now he don’t even call me for a week and more . Whenever I call there is an explanation for sure . So I just stopped calling . I never spoke to any of my friends any time about our relationship things . We are a great couple for everyone all time. Now I don’t wanna discuss all these with them and make their trust on love break . I am feeling so lonely and frustrated.

Relationships

I'm in pain and i dont know if I even should be in this pain because someone couldn't talk to me and i screwd up because I die talk to them in the first place I feel like I should call today but what if it becomes a burden and he's having fun with his friends and what if my time slot is over man I feel like I wanna talk to him man. It's killing me from the inside I can't concentrate in class and i feel like my I have to just scream and shout at everything im. Scared mam i know thi sis meaningless ramble but there's no other place where else I can ramble man I'm tired just tired would o get a second chance at this relationship man

3am Thoughts

I was contemplating and tracing back why I had such a stupid/confusing dream. Maybe the reason why Denvert was on that dream is because he was brought up by this Catanduanes friend in our chats yesterday while I was asking if they were okay (TD Paeng). I didn't expect it to be him because I know it's Carlo. The fact that we're going to meet his family. But when I look at the guy, it's Denvert. I was so shock I started to panic. I can't get away from the dream because I was being introduced to her Ate and this time they seem to like me. The setting changed and it's on our house. On the balcony near the gate and the railings are ruined like how I mentioned to Carlo. And now as per checking, the walls separating our house from the vacant lot was ruined as well. Then there's my Titas, Titos, Lola, and Mama. Before they even meet Denvert he told us he'd be right back. After a while the clouds were dark and the wind is blowing you can even hear it whistle, then there's brownout. It was a bit later when Mama asked where he is and if he would be back.

I panicked because it was not Carlo and I don't want to tell him abt this or how I wish I forgot it when I wake up but the dream is so vivid. Thank God I wake up and the first thing I did was to open my data (it's still brownout here as of this writing), saw his chat if I'm already awake and told him that dream. I was sighing nonstop. It was not a  sigh of relief, disappointment, tiredness or irritation. I don't know what it was. I just wanted to get out of there and run into him. 

Then I thought, maybe he (Denvert) was so mad at me before he cursed me like how Ate B is cursing his ex and that's why this kind of thing keeps on happening. 

I still don't know how could that happen and why it happened. We were okay. We stayed late because sleep passed through. Then this happened.

Boyfriend

Tell me Atleast 1 fact about quiet person! 

Merry Christmas and happy new year to y'all 

(I wanna say it in advance for some reasons)

Life

I think I could stand anything, any suffering, only to be able to say and to repeat to myself every moment, 'I exist.' In thousands of agonies -- I exist. I'm tormented on the rack -- but I exist! Though I sit alone in a pillar -- I exist! I see the sun, and if I don't see the sun, I know it's there. And there's a whole life in that, in knowing that the sun is there.

Books

I've been feeling lonely lately. I hate change, I'm getting used to it but it sucks when I don't have a friend to talk to. I had a best friend but she's been making new friends lately. I want to disappear so bad. 

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