I am so apologetic about my father who diagnosed positive in covid-19 and caused troubles to all the medical staffs and everyone surrounding me due to his ignorance…My family relationship is true mess since the beginning but it worsen during these days. My dear mother had diagnose to have uncontrolled hypertension anxiety and always in depression. She always in worried, stress and unable to have a proper sleep, a slight sound will waking her up. I’m extremely worried about her mental and physical health very much… And I as the eldest daughter need to hold up all the responsibility and do my best to enlighten my mother’s mood but nothing works till now…Every phone calls from the relatives only need my sweet talk and talk something that make them relieve…No word of encouragement and concern from them…Then, I need to focus in my studies, assignment, final examination and whole lots of things… These stressful situation really breaking my mentality. I have plenty of negative thoughts even before the pandemic occurred but now i am more confused, mess up and the tons of thoughts made me going crazy. I even have the idea of suicide but still there is a side of me who force me to face the current situation and put me away from getting deeper into suicidal idea… I always feel a huge stone on my head and heart. I really wonder am i doing my best right now or am i just run away from troubles or what… 😩😥
Im sorry for everything u are going through…u are strong…u can do this… if it helps if ur mother is willing try have a conversation with your mother about she is handling it??? And affirming that you are there and tell her try to hold on…try to make her mind at peace… u have a lot running through your life…we are here to support you and talk to us…it feels like giving up but sometimes…living through it makes future more bright…u are strong…talk to us share your feelings…may god bring your family health and prosperity❤️❤️
Thank you. Your words really getting me tearing up and it’s nice to have someone that i can vent my feeling to and i’m really appreciate your words. Thank you very much.
Much love ❤️
I am so sorry for everything you are going through. You are so strong to be carrying your family through this difficult time. Your family is very lucky to have you caring for them during these unprecedented times; although I feel like you would be doing it no matter what the case (pandemic or not) - you seem like a truly loyal family member/friend. We are here to support you and listen. ❤️
Thank you for your warm words.