I am so affraid …my heart is beating so fast I can’t even breathe properly …I am kind of freaked out … I can’t show my fear to anyone ! I am so so affraid I am with my dad his ecg and all reports are so abnormal… man I can’t even react as my dad is kind of affraid of hospitals … he gets anxiety when he gets there and there is a lot thing to do … doctors aren’t sure about his condition I am the elder one in the family I am the one who need to handle everything my dad is my backbone and I am nothing without him and now he is weak emotionally and physically !!! How will I do everything , there is a hell lot of procedures how can I be so courageous when a person who gives me courage is weak … I never felt to be a boy our want to have a brother this bad … I thought I was enough my sisters are enough but we were strong because the shield my dad was stronger … he is weak all relatives all Uncles are trying to be the man of our house like they are the one who will make decisions !!! Idk I am loosing control over myself., my emotions I am vulnerable !!
Right now just think of your dad’s health.
Time will pass and everything will be alright.
