I am really confused about my feelings towards my best friend. I do care for her..but sometimes I feel like I have feelings for her and sometimes I feel like I am just overthinking.. people always say that we look like a couple or we behave like a couple..but isn't that normal for best friend.Am I gay or I am just overly attached to her. I am really confused.. it's first time I am feeling something like this  

It's just a normal thing donot overthink thoda sa space lo dono 
Bze best friends after proposal bhot bura behave krte i felt that experience 

Coming Out

"It's sad to say but sometimes you have to purposely ignore them. You have to forward their calls, avoid the places they go to and block out their friends completely. Sometimes you have to be cold to move on. You have to treat them how  they treated you and that's what hurts the most. "- r.  m.  drake

Mental Wellbeing

Where i work na it's a manufacturing company we manufacture Electric accessories like 2pin, 3 pin holders n all... 
One thing I noticed here is the bills which I make are of only 25% Quantity... Like order is of 1 carton i.e. 1920 pcs then the bill I generate is only of 480 pcs. So my question here is what abt that remaining 75%.
And one more thing is most of the orders they are delivered only on Kaccha Challan. No that original bill. Like if we delivered 100 crts in a month out of that I generally only 12 or 14 max is 30 bills... 2 yrs ho gye mereko yaha work karte hue but Ye sab 
Aisa kyu muje Aaj Tak nhi samjha... And same for Monetary Transactions almost bhut se transactions cash mein... Kya type ka Accounts karte hai sir Nhi pata😅😅





Confusion

Hi there! 
Just want a good conversation before going to sleep. 
Anyone there?

Meditation

I see people post their glow up and positive change since 2020. Pre Covid, during Covid and now.
Some are doing exceptionally well in work, some have achieved their body goals, some are now happily settle with their love.
Here I my version of glow up..
I didn’t had courage to put this on social media. As this might look sad and show my down fall.
PRE COVID- 
▪️I had a good well paying job and respected designation.
▪️I was living away from family, full freedom.
▪️I was happy with whatever small group of friends I had. Use to have frequent conversation and everything was going good.
▪️health wise I was underweight but mentally health was fine.
▪️had a good relationship with my partner.
▪️ I was happy in whatever my life was at that point of time.
COVID-
▪️ shifted back to home, started living with family after 6 years. Very difficult situation for me.
▪️ came to know that there is a lot of problems in family.
▪️lost my job, had no work and earning.
▪️seeing all the fighting at home, being scolded shouted upon. I developed trauma and anxiety.
▪️ I no longer talked to family or to friends like I use to.
▪️cut off from all my friends, then noticed that nobody approached back. Making me feel it I only I in this friendship…or this was friendship only from my end.
▪️partner cheated upon me, then it was just bad and eventually I broke up.
▪️started taking therapy for anxiety, but had no money to go to actual dr to get myself treated. So keep participating in free sessions.
▪️anxiety got serious had panic attacks, cried alone for months, without my family knowing it.
NOW-
▪️still no job
▪️live with family 
▪️ developed defence mechanisms from domestic fighting as Freez.
▪️ now my mom and few friends know about my anxiety and panic attacks, still not got any dr consulting for it.
▪️frequently getting anxiety attacks, feeling of worthless.

Anxiety

last week i had dreamed with people from my past and i keep feeling is my way to say really goodbye to them. 

3am Thoughts

Anyone from Pune.? 

Go green

Addiction

Hey anybody up for sharing thoughts on Holi celebration ..I have not been to my home for holi for past 3 years..

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts