I am not actually sure about my feelings right now. I don't know if I am happy or sad..in a dilemma. I have finally officially ended my 8 years of toxic relationship. I am happy that I feel free now... no negativity. But sad that it had to end this way.

Don't worry everything need not to end in a happy way. This is life not a movie you will be fine in some months. Pamper youself and don't blame yourself for anything. May you feel great today❤❤

There's a horrible feeling in my chest whenever something goes wrong. I always used to keep it in, not telling anyone because I hate showing anyone I'm vulnerable. My mom is supportive but I hate that she has to be strong even if it might devastate her. I feel almost always on edge, stressed, anxious, angry at myself for not being good enough. I always question if I deserve anything or anyone's support. I always compare myself to others, hating on myself. I cry it out and it gets better for a while, but that feeling never goes away. I think I need help, but don't know whats wrong with me. 

Stress

I've been home from work for 10 minutes and he's already pissing me off. I want to scream. 

Adulting

I feel numb. 
My self awareness feels like a blessing and curse at the same time. 

I never feel heard. 
There is always someone who thinks"relating" to your issue or what you feel is helpful. 
Or saying "we all feel that way every now and then" would be. 
But what they don't see is that I spend 24/7 with reasoning. 
I know the roots of the emotions I feel. 
The roots of why I struggle with endings, why I am a private person, why I rather have a small close friend group, etc. 

I carry all the weight of people around me, and always have. That's the way I've been conditioned. But when it's my turn to be listened to... whenever I try to open up to someone, they make it all about themselves. 

I'm tired. 


I hate my self i hate my life u hate my friends i just can't anymore i used be soo cheerful i am still but its only a pretend i was so much into pretending that i am ok and everything is fine that now i don't even know my true self i have lost that enthusiastic, cheerful, ambition girl i was now i am just an empty soul who don't know what she want to do in life. Its my last year in school 12th grade i have my boards this year but u haven't even started studying and everyone have high hopes from me its not like i don't want to study or something its just that i have lost my will to live anymore. I envy those people so much that can be their true self around their friends and family i just can't. I want to die but i can't cause i am the only child

3am Thoughts

Some point in everyone's life, there will be a moment when you feel there isn't a single place on earth where u actually belong !!
Have u guys feel that!?

Hope

I feel like I’m getting closer and closer to the point that ima snap and hurt someone or kill myself. I’m really tired of everything and everyone. I doubt people would care if I die. It’s nice having friends or a lover but usually they’ll stop texting, just act like u where never there in the first place like ur some kind of ghost. I doubt my bf would care if I die, he already stops seeing me and he acts like I’m not important anymore. I’m tired of my family yelling at each other. I wish they knew what I am going through I wish I could tell more about what I went through or going through so much stuff happened to me in my life, father being on drugs, not really that loved, being left with my grandma till I finished the 6th grade while sis was with friends or parents and rest of siblings living in texas. I’m in 9th now hardly have any friends no one to talk to. Just alone with my thoughts._.

i just have a question is it okay to be vulnerable with someone?


What to do if you badly need a vacation or a break from your routine but can’t go anywhere. 

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