I am never getting out of this loop, I know. Everything is just bad.

I actually do whatever i want and say shit because I. Dead inside

That’s one way to live. Also please consider seeking professional help maybe ?

If everything is going to end up being BAD. gives you more reason to say shit ! Let’s do whatever I want. Until I can 

3am Thoughts

 before I said to you am fall in love with you if I said to u today it's not happened anyway happy married life (she is really beautiful girl ) please take care of him and love him more his ur husband and am as usual out sider🙂🥺

One Sided Love

Yes, I laugh 😊, but not with the heart.
Just my cheek muscles are moving.
I may pretend to be happy, but I'm not.
I'm trying to detach from you, not trying to hate you.
I'm distancing myself, not avoiding you as you did to me.
I step back, because I can't suffer all the disrespect you've thrown.
I no longer put efforts to talk with you as I did before, because, I'm done.
I may not ask are you ok now, how was your day, those annoying things.
Still I miss you. But I can't show my emotions, as you said you are not interested in hearing that.
Lots of confusions, and I begged you for a small talk to clarify all, you denied with disrespect.
Maybe I'm weak, I've been going through a lot, you were my stress reliever, but instead of supporting, you made me more weak.
All I can say is, my intentions are pure. I treated you as my family.
I Put all my efforts to talk with you.
I Put all my efforts for being in touch.
I'm tired, I may not be the best one for you 😊
I cared too much, and I ended up in depression.
I can't change like you changed overnight.
But, it's ok, I'm leaving. Your last seen won't bother me anymore. You won't receive my annoying messages anymore. And , I will not talk bad about you to anyone. I want you to be on top. God bless you. This man is done. He is an ordinary human with emotions. And I pray, your narcisstic trait should not harm you.
All the best, no arguments, no dramas, nothing to say. By the weak man, the unlucky man, moreover, the man who loved you even at your lowest. 😇


Breakup

Lonely and bored 

Lonely

Is wanting a study buddy good? I am a 12th grader and a neet aspirant. There are some online study groups but I doubt to join. I am not sure if a study buddy is good or not. Any advice?

Education

What's with these weirdo guy on here I c9me her to vent not for a boyfriend besides i already have one

It’s getting heavier, I had thought pushing the boulder every day up the hill in this endless state of Sisyphus would become easier, that I would become stronger, that things would get better, but it doesn’t and they don’t.

I’m paralysed in place, my mind always hypothesising and daydreaming, stuck in an endless loop of understanding what needs to be done and never knowing how to actually do it, as though the act of doing and the revelation of understanding are two worlds that only orbit each other, afraid to collide.

I am in a prison, I am my jailor, I am the cage, I am the key, all of this revolves around me, I need help, I can do this myself, why bother ? Who am I ? Just let me die, but I want to live, there’s so much more to do, but it’s all pointless, nothing feels good anymore, just let it end.
Too lazy for a suicide so I just watch the days pass, hoping to die.

It’s getting worse inside my head, on the outside I’m fine, somewhat charming, well articulated, attractive, capable, inside I’m screaming, crying, hurling myself at things, staring off into the distance imagining what it’s like for everything to just stop, I don’t understand life, I never have, they called me gifted, placing ever heavier loads on me while I tried to live up to their standards, it was never enough and it never will be, now nothing is ever enough for me, my thoughts and writing matches my inner monologue, rambling and disconnected, on the verge of becoming incoherent.

Therapy hasn’t helped, family avoids the issues, people that are close spill the usual platitudes, I’m lonely and isolated, I’m writing this to get it out, I don’t know what else to do anymore.

Depression

Received very hard slap today 💔🥺

Anger Issues

Love is not to get her
It's about making her feel special and take every sorrow into you

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