Afakename @89daysanditsyou...
I am going to tell you a story about my childhood and how it completely changed my life.
Do not read if you are conservative minded person.
When I was 5 years old,my parents parted their ways.My mom and I went to my maternal house.Now I am 20,and nothing has changed with respect to that.
SO what happened is that I always got hovering parenting from my mother for 2 reasons:First ,I am a single child,Second My mom is way too much emotional (and so am I ,heredity ,they say). So far the things seem normal ,well, wait.
My cousins used to play outside in the playgound with friends but I was not allowed by mom to do so,I never went to picnics or tours in my school.NEVER.EVER.Never went to any fair to enjoy fun rides , cause she thought its too dangerous.All these things gave me a habit of overthinking.A bad habit in many ways. I started to self observe and self speculate many thoughts that were there in my mind.You may think “well that’s not a big problem” but I will tell you why it the biggest drawback that I still have and why I am struggling in my life these days because of this.Lets fast forward a bit…Its year 2016.I am in 10th standard.Its a summer afternoon of 16th of June.My all family is in a banquet hall ,its my cousin sister’s engagement.I left the hall to go home (which is like a few 100 meters away )to get some sleep.16 years old me,resting on the bed to relieve from these big functions exhaustion,something that every indian can relate with.My uncle had forgotten his smartphone at home.When a teenagers mind is wandering and thinking randomly ,there is no place in the mind at that time which is not accesible,I took it and started surfing internet on it.You may now feel wheres this story is heading.I took the phone,and decided to explore all the curosities I had related to a taboo which is not talked a lot about in our society,SEX,and ATTRACTION TOWARDS THE OPPOSITE GENDER.Coming straightforward to the point, I wanna confess here that on that day ,I WATCHED PORN FOR THE FIRST TIME.What happened after that and what consequences I am facing right now is simply evident in many ways and also unimaginable for many.
Porn is like that venom character of spider man movies.It kills you from inside but most of the time you find it pleasure giving ,the real person inside you want to get rid of this but it is simply impossible without external help.So in short , I need your help.I need a partner which will help me to quit this bad habit.Reply to help if you really feel that I am not a bad person but a person with some very bad habit(I dont have to mention here that it is a kind of help that can only be asked anonymously cause these topics are too sensitive to be discussed about in real life,if you read this long message ,thank you and sorry).
well its not a bad habit to get to know yourself, so stop taking it too hard on yourself, it is something every teenager goes through in their adolescence. I too felt the same thing when i watched it for the first time and was really disgusted asf, and felt i had done a really big mistake in doing so. All i would like to share with you is that its okay to watch and try to understand your own body, perceive it as just another biological process, just bear in mind that anything in excess is bad, so be aware and try to draw a line when it becomes the only thing you are thinking about, thats when it starts to be a problem. hope this brings in a different perspective and helps you. cheers
Hi there, after reading I can say that it’s absolutely normal for everyone to go through that phase of life, Appreciation to you as you stand for yourself by talking about it.
My piece of advice is simple as in our 20’s we tend to go through these things but you can overcome or control this in many ways, One of the simple ways is to indulge yourself in some activity( anything cooking, sports, volunteer work, household chores, exercise, tutoring, etc which keeps your mind busy) initially it will be bit hard but trust me if you continue this for 21 days you will see the change within you. And hey there’s no one as bad or good its due to the situation they are in makes them that, so don’t be hard on yourself eat your food regularly have a sleep cycle.
bro seeing porn is a common thing…but if u want to stop…start a new activity…learn something new bro…an instrument?..all i can say that you are not a bad person…just a little on the wrong path…get on with your life…learn new things eat fruits and all…work earn live
Well after going through this I can say that watching porn is not a bad habit, like it is if u watch that the whole day. Infact many people do watch but don’t accept it the way uh said. At ur age it’s totally normal to watch that. If u wanna stop this habit then divert ur mind in something else like learning somethings new like a language, spending time with ur friends, reading a book or playing a sport whichever things that ca remove all those porn thoughts from ur head. U can even block the sites on which u watch it, so even if u feel like watching n when u open the site it will not open that will help u stop watching that.
