I am feeling low....all my friends think im a pushover..all i try to do is make them laugh and so i try to keep the mood lively and whenever they are down i go give them hugs and console them...but now that i am low they dont even think about talkimg to me...i havent spoken to them the whole day..although i spent the whole time with them...i asked them to go out do whatever they had planned to do amd they didnt even care to ask me why i suddenly decided to cancel the plan...why do i always have to be the good person i want to matter too..i want pple to care about me and console me when i feel down...i always help them out ...may it be academical or whatever...they always come to me when they want company...but they never care abt me when i need them...i really want to stop talking to them and just break off from this toxic friendship...but they are theonly pple who actually talk to me so i dont really have a choice but to be with them...i  wnat someone to really see im worth it and im likable too..i want to be liked too...i feel lonely or i dunno

I was always ready to help my friends and i care for them I show respect and make them feel comfortable even though I'm not.
But still they hurt my feelings and they behave rude with and and end of the day I'm the fool 

Anxiety

none of my friends truly care of would like to spend time with me and do not talk to me often, but they say they care about me

Lonely

Do you believe in making friends or love your self company ?

Intro

I am neither happy nor sad.
I don't know what I'm feeling.
I want friends but i don't think I am able to maintain friendships. I have a lot of friends like a lott.
But in the last month I lost two of my closest friends.
And since then I keep on wondering if something is wrong with me?
I don't really know.....

For the past few months i have this lingering feeling like me and my best friends have been slowly drifting apart ..( we have known each other for more 8-9 years now but i have been living in a different city for 2 yrs) it feels like they suddenly started ignoring me and stuff and I don’t wanna impose on them and call them out on it every time since they have own life to live … but sometimes it gets too hard and I literally have no other friends or ppl i can talk too… sometimes it feels like an ass just because I doubt them or friendship persay cuz it could very well be possible that its something entirely different …. Man its too hard to realize it is falling apart 

Hey everyone,

I hope you all are doing well. I came on here because I am having a lot of trouble determining if a friendship I have is no longer worth keeping.

I think one of the main reasons I think our friendship should end is because we are both changing and our lives are moving down different paths than they were when we first met. Sometimes I think we both drag each other because we are trying to keep this friendship alive. I do not think this is healthy, as our friendship should come naturally.

Secondly, I sometimes do not feel like the time I do spend with this person is valued that much to them. Personally, I go above and beyond for my friends; I cannot stop thinking about them, especially since I moved away a few months ago to a new city for college. I always try to make sure they are doing well and show my affection for them through a lot of things, such as playlists, art, etc. I never expect anything in return of course, they never asked for these items in the first place. But this person makes a lot of false promises about the things I make for them, and when confronted lies to me. For example, I made them a playlist on Youtube, with song recommendations I made for them, which they also supposedly listened to, a while ago and they were really thankful, and they said they would listen to it. Well it's been 4 months and the playlist still has zero views. This really made me doubt if I am putting too much time into this friendship and it made me doubt the rest of the other affection items I made for them and if they were worth anything to this person.

Third and finally, it seems they are unwilling to try any new experiences. When I first met this person, they convinced me to try a lot of the things they liked, like specific video games, songs, meeting their friends, and the list could go on. Yesterday night, I asked if they wanted to try something relating to one of my interests, and they said, "No, I'm good. That stuff is not really for me." At first, I felt bad for forcing this person into something they did not like, but then I thought about it some more. I realized that this situation has occurred a lot during the duration of our friendship and that I do not think this is something I value in a friendship. I realized that I wanted someone who would be willing to at least give something a shot before turning it down completely, as long as it is safe of course. I did not think it was very fair for me to be open to trying experiences this person liked, but them not reciprocating this expectation back.

This realization made me delete and get rid of almost everything I put my time into for them last night. Today, I wanted to confront this person, but I'm not completely confident that it is the right thing to do. I've confronted them before and we came to a mutual agreement, but I think this agreement has been broken. Therefore I decided to come here. It is really unfortunate too because they are the one who recommended this website to me. But anyways, thank you for reading all of this.

Friends

Morose and Guilty

Over the past few years, I've looked for emotional intimacy in relationships rather than building close friendships. I've had friendships with people but none that I've put solid effort into maintaining and growing. My most recent "relationship" with a sociopathic narcissist blew up and has made me consciously aware of how negligent I've been with my friendships. Throwing in quarantine, it's made me more aware of how few friends I actually have. I'm determined to fix this when all of this ends, but I need help processing why I've pursued this path for as long as I have.

Relationships

Every friend of mine used my wealth and left me off. I just wanna fuck everyone around! They made me evil. I used to be very calm and truthful to everyone but finally I got back something I can’t fuck around! 

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