I am an only child. Had teenage problems with parents so moved out for studies (created an escape). Enjoyed my life outside. I didn’t studied and only had fun and failed my studies. Eventually had to come back home. Since I was depressed I started having anxiety attacks. I had symptoms of borderline personality disorder. So moved to other place to live alone and took up a college. I was a realist by this time and everyone around me felt either childish or mean. So I don’t have any friends or anyone to talk to. Never had a girlfriend. I only like people who live reality and not lost in some fantasy and stuck with their Instagrams or something.I want to make friends but this place is kinda fucked up too. People here aren’t that friendly or polite. I have to spend few more years here. I don’t know why I’m craving for emotional support. Being home alone all the time I can’t find interest in anything now.
Sometimes being alone for a little bit makes you truly look around you and start on a clean slate. You might feel like you don’t have a lot of friends but give it some time, someone might feel the exact same way about the importance of being a realist and an incredible relationship will start. I hope your anxiety attacks diminish until a point in which you look back and realize you haven’t Harv one in a while. It will truly get better, you just have to keep going.
