I am a college student. Everything around me is more than fine, I have never seen any financial problems and was provided with everything I asked for. My parents just love me a lot. I used to have a lot of friends in school and as I moved to a different city for college we got separated, everyone is in a different city. I am still in contact with them, once in a while ai call them and meet in festivals. College is also fine there are lot of people I know and we hang out but still I dont feel good. My college class mates always invite me but I always deny, like the meanest of people in my class are nice to me I dont know why 😂, but the problem is I dont feel like doing anything and I am not a very happy person. I have started liking solitude, and I really feel alive when I am drinking alcohol. 4 out of 7 days I get drunk, and I prefer drinking alone. I feel no one can understand me, and I am really tired of putting up a fake facade. Is something really wrong with me ?
If it makes you feel better, I feel the same way. Got to uni and drink too much. The truth is you doubt need an excuse to feel sad, if that’s how you feel, then that’s how you feel. Please tell someone tho, reach out to your school’s counsellor, or phone a helpline- honestly to me this sounds like depression.