I am 21 years old and broke up with my gf recently.Not because we both wanted to but that’s what it seemed to be right.she believe if you love you should let go and i believe if you really love, you should hold onto the person. Though i know she is right, it’s hard to accept the truth for me.
Devastated.i feel like i am loosing myself.i live in a country where there are different types of love are not accepted.i fell in love with a girl and for a fact i know she is the one for me. We broke up because she said this gonna hurt a lot of people and we can not be selfish. For our parents and family we stopped it. I still am talking to her.and she still loves me and so do i.and i don’t think i’ll ever be able to stop.i cry like a crazy person and i don’t know what to do to end this pain. I am angry at myself and all the world.i don’t want people near me and i don’t want to talk to anyone.only one friend knows bout my situation and i not in a situation where i can talk bout what i am going through.
Everything i wanted to do with my life, goals and future, i don’t see the point of it. I tried to analyse what i am going through and nothing is helping.
Feeling helpless.hopeless.tired of faking smiles and pretending to be happy.tired of crying.tired of everything.