I am 21 and i feel like I am sore loser who can't do anything on his own and and I want to develop my personality where I don't have to be depend on anyone. Any suggestions ?

Necesito consejos por favor ayúdenme , me siento mal . Mi mamá reacciona muy feo conmigo siempre fue así desde que era pequeña , si no sacaba buenas notas me pegaba muy feo , desde que me fui a un internado para estudiar ella había cambiado, como soy hija única sufrió mucho pero ahora por la pandemia todo estaba muy bien pero su reacción no ha cambiado , cuando ella ha hecho algo mal no lo reconoce me hecha la culpa de todo diciéndome que "nada hago bien" que si ella no lo hace todo está mal" .... y si le digo algo se altera muy fuerte hasta el punto de llegar a desmayarse. Mi tía que vivió conmigo desde pequeña le dice que no está bien como me trata , ella está cansada , que ella también sufre. Pero ya no sé que hacer...mi mamá dice que va mejorar pero nada , mi papá no me ayuda , no le dice nada, no me defiende, me siento sola, quisiera contar esto a mis amigos ... pero para qué? la gente ya no es para confiar... me duele todo esto... irme de mi casa seria lo mejor pero aun dependo de mis padres por mi corta edad .... en serio ya no sé que hacer . Por mi culpa mis padres discuten y ay :( todo esto me duele... a veces me digo ¿Que hice mal en la tierra para merecer eso?

Exhausted

This place seems to get bigger every time I visit. Noice! 😍😍

For people who may care, I'm out at sea again. It's been great so far. Great team to work with. A big pain in the neck boss. 😄. But we manage.

Anyways, sending out positive vibes and loving hugs to one and all, with consent of course.

Do me a favor people. Next time you see yourself in the mirror, tell them you are awesome. Tell them you will make them proud, one day. Tell them, you will get back to them. Tell them, you believe in them. Tell them, you are thankful for teaching you.

Hope you guys a great week. Love you people. ❤️

3am Thoughts

Toh chalo shuru karte hai

Any there for chit chat

Friends

Does anyone feel like you just need someone to be right beside you and listen to your heart and make you feel better..

Why this feeling comes even when you have lot of ppl around, I mean why can't we share with those with them like family, friends ?

Lonely

I met once a girl from online making friends app then we add each other on snap , almost a year we don't even talk then suddenly one day she react to my story . Then she message me after that we start talking .i got to know she is from different state and she was older than me . Later we talked and then started sharing N to eachother but i doubted that the pictures are not her because she was like intellectual and beautiful. I doubted her so she got upset .....  
NOW WE STOPPED TALKING!!

So its a long story...on april 2022 i like this guy and my close friend also like him but i didnt know at the time so i made the first move (and my close friend, lets call her ira knows about this) even though we were already chatting at the time but just about school works. In the middle of the month,there was this event and i was taking pictures with the guy,giving cake to him in front of ira then we got super close,he flirted with me, i flirted with him i bought him gifts,i stayed up in the middle of the night bc he needed someone to talk to...i think ive done so many good things for him but on july 2022 we just disconnect...we didnt talk much and he doesnt seem interested...on his birthday,i found out Ira gave him a gift too and I thought it was super weird but didnt think much of it but a week later i found out they were talking (me and the guy already stopped talking). Maybe after two weeks of them talking,the guy came back to me saying he have a lot of things to say but didnt say anything at all. So i tried talking to ira,telling her about the guy texting me while also texting her(which she didnt tell me herself that she was talking to him) and she didnt say anything except silence and "idk what to say im too shocked". On September 2022,ira told our mutual friend that it was my fault in april(on the day of the event) that she was super down.
I just dont get it how is it my fault? I did not know she likes him...i should be the one that's angry because she knew that i liked him she knew i was talking to him yet she still texted him... Is it my really my fault?
And somewhere in September she told me she had already stopped talking to him but it was a lie of course, right now as i am writing this they are texting with each other.
So after all this long story lmao is it truly my fault?


Relationships

..my boyfriend told me he's losing feelings and that im too much for him. Then he told me he didn't mean it. At this point I cant get those words out of my head.

Depression

I don't really know how he feels now. The thought of him being together with someone else is killing me. I feel like from now he will pamper her like he used to do to me. Whenever such thoughts comes into my mind, I try to distract myself or I try to keep myself busy in doing something. But until when will I do this. I wish he had never came into my life. I just miss him so much.

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