Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I also want to cry that I hv a boyfriend or a crush… I also want to cry and ask for relationship advices, I also want problems of my age which I can solve, I also want to cry over silly matters and be pampered, I also want to act like my age,
But I am stuck, I only have a broken heart(not by a person) , my books (No teachers), expectations, a big fat dream and all of my incompetence I can not blame myself for nor can change and a mind which does not know how to stop. What should i do?