I already had a feeling when I was like 13 years old that thereβs something different in me but I ignored it. I chose to continue the life Iβve been living as a good son, good friend, good Christian and good student. I was happy and I am still is. The difference between then and now is just I feel so empty. Iβm 22, most of my friends are straight guys, my family is a conservative one and Iβve figured this thing in me just by earlier this year. Right now that Iβm trying to sort things out and understand this different feeling, itβs so confusing. I feel like I am being torn apart. Should I continue the path Iβve been taking ever since or should I try to be open to this change I am still not yet ready to experience?
Tina Chawla @tinachawla
Hello!
First things first, you are valid, and loved. SO loved!
Iβm proud of you for sharing this.
Secondly, I read this somewhere when I was younger, but it changed my entire life. It said, βchange is the only constantβ. You tell me, if the world 50 years ago was too comfortable in its position, would there be any development? Iβm not saying that these situations are the same, but I think that one should be open to change, especially if the βnormalβ is getting suffocating. Hope this helps.
Love,
Tina
Hi, Tina. Thanks for replying and for giving me this amazing advice. I totally agree with everything youβve just mentioned here and as for me, maybe sooner or later, Iβll be able to do it. I just need more time to think and to prepare myself. There are just so many people involved and so many things to compromise once I let this thing out and choose accepting this change which could be the biggest change of my life as a young adult.
But a part of me looks forward to it. A part of me wants to try, however, a huge part of me thinks otherwise. Itβs really difficult to be in this kind of position. I hope to go through this one day. I really do.
Tina Chawla @tinachawla
Thereβs absolutely no rush. Take all the time that you need. Whatever your choice, I hope it makes you truly happy. Glad I could help!
I wish it is that easy, but in reality, itβs one of the hardest things to do for someone who is still new to this kind of thing and itβs as much as hard for the people I love. Thanks for your encouragement btw. I appreciate it so much.