Hye there! Iβm not feeling well today. I rarely sharing my feelings here. Is it okay to feel lonely, hopeless and useless as well? Iβve goin thru a hard day today. My mom scold me in the early of morning and she even said "you have to realize that you just βstayβ here.π
novescorp @novscorpio
im so sorry you feel that wayπ₯Ί. is your mom always talking to you like that?
when we argue, she always talk like that. Sometime I ask myself, βdoes she loves me?β. She loves my other siblings. But I can feel that she hates me at the same time.
novescorp @novscorpio
That is so sad. Do you perhaps know a reason why she has these feelings towards you and not your other siblings?
maybe it is because i am a cheerful person or happy go lucky person. Maybe she sees me like I donβt have problems. And maybe she thinks Iβm okay if she being harsh towards me? I used to hear one sentences where it sound like this βUsually cheerful person who are hurt the mostβ. :)
hey you wanna call and talk?
no, itβs okay. thankyouu. It is more comfortable to talk hereπ
dhvani @dhvanee
Iβm really sorry if you feel that way. And is there any specific reason why your mom said that? I think she sounded rude and harsh when she said that, and thatβs the consequence of you feeling so sad.
maybe bcs she hates me? Yeahh, since I 16 yrs old i experiencing this. It hurts. I want to go back to the campus. Since itβs lockdown, so i have to stay at home and learn thru online learning
dhvani @dhvanee
Thatβs really sad. Doesnβt it seem like a torture? Firstly youβre locked at home, secondly burdened with online classes, and then hearing such harsh words?
Yess. Sometimes I feel really bad to share something bad about her. But i canβt hold it anymore. I rarely sharing about this to people. Itβs a lie if I tell you that Iβm not stressing out with online classes. I wish I can disappear from this world. :)
dhvani @dhvanee
You donβt have to disappear, your stress has to disappear, and that can happen only when you decide not to take too much load. I know online studies are not easy, but just donβt let it rule ober your life. Thereβs much more to do. Talking about your mother, itβs okay to speak about stuff you donβt like about her. Nobody is perfect, and she isnβt too. Maybe she didnβt intend to, but hurt you. Of maybe she did that intentionally. Well the intention doesnβt matter, what only matters is that youβre hurt.
Thank you for your sweet words. Thank you for your concern dear :) I feel so blessed at my lowest point in my life actually. Yes, you are absolutely true. I have to find the solution to confront with this matter. Take care and thank you <3
dhvani @dhvanee
My pleasure!:)
Hello. I just wanna share somthing. Eventhough u have many friends, a happy famly or perfect life. Please, learn to live alone. Because we will never know when they leave us, alone. Learn how to survive alone. Make yourself as priority. Dont you ever let yourself hurts by ppl around you. Fight for yrself. π