How to go back and live happily... I want to forget what happened to me in the past. I'm unable to get back to my normal state.please help

Got cheated by my partner more than once. After a lot of drama things got settled now but I'm unable to pass through it still I'm having panic attacks. I want to live happily but not able to

Yes I'm still with that person.i thought of leaving but sake of kids I'm staying

Depression

Love is innocence 

Love

Cool

Celebration

When you feel lost ,go home spend some with family 

Addiction

Gham Iss kadar badhe, ke mai ghabra ke pi gya..
Iss dil ki bebasi pe taras kha ke pi gya..
Thukra raha tha mujhko badi der se jahaan,
Mai aaj sab jahaan ko thukra ke pi gya...

Alcohol

Good morning
Hey stranger how you doing? What are you having for breakfast?

If you are in love with a person and that person is busy with their work and she talks for only 10 minutes per day. Also, it’s a long distance relationship. 
My point is I don’t feel that those ten minutes are enough. But I also understand she has her studies and everything and she is always very calm and makes me understand things. But I don’t know how long can I go on trying to be happy with this ten minutes thing. 

Relationships

A DAY IN EVERYDAY


Wake up!! With an alarm
Check ma phone
There's no text waiting for you to reply to 
I surprised!! Everytime
A quick check on the texts
Everyone left me on seen
No disappointments 
everyday stuff
Take a peek on everyone's life 
Everyone's happy without me
Everybody has friends except me
Like everyday
Why am I keep getting hurt without any reasons?
I asked to myself many times
But I still get no answers , only deep regrets. 
Don't know the real source of ma pain 
Everyday drowning into the deep abyss of thoughts and sorrow 
Feels so suffocating 
Hearing my own thoughts 
I try to hangout with other ppl whom we call "friends " 
But it's just useless 
The more ppl I talk with 
The more I get isolated and deeper the thoughts I have about myself
Sitting at a public place..... alone
Watching at other people with happy faces
Is soo pretty depressing 
Sipping the coffee time after time 
Just to keep myself look busy
Typing notes so I look social
But actually I'm writing down my thoughts that are useless and nonsense 
It doesn't even makes sense at all
Like .... nothing's wrong with me 
Not even a thing 
I am just overreacting over things that barely happened
Yeah I'm fine , yeah everything's cool
But ......
If I am being honest , I am not okay
Increased the caffeine but this pain wont go away
Thought alcohol would help 
But too scared of getting addicted 
So I didn't even dare to try 
Caffeine is also not effective anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have I not moved on yet?!
Or is this something else?
Some kind of insecurity 
Some kind of different level of overthinking shit or 
Some kind of regret
I have completely changed 
From how i was to how i am right now
I don't know how to go back
Everything's just slipping through 
Can't let you go 
This sick feeling 
Eating me through inside out
Not exaggerating things but it itself is exaggerated 
So.............
I miss you
I really miss you .




Anxiety

I m feeling really low ... Uh know lowest in ur lyf .... Highly demotivated ... Lack of love.  . Lack of emotions ... Not able to connect with people ...  Not able to do my routine .... Disconnected from parents ..... Doing nothing in career.    


 

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