How to get rid of from insecurities?!,
I tried so many times, i come home late night, play also eSports games, make myself busy but still if i have 5 min free time i just start thinking about her, and it's natural but i don't know why i feel so much insure now after she started her master's degree, we start our conversation politely and every time i fucked up all the things gets angry and frustrated.

Also i tried to hide my insecurities but after that i don't feel good, my heart starts to beat very fast.

About her friends, her profession is a fashion designer, its normal in their culture to hug, but i get so much jealous


If u have insecurities that means u don't trust her.

Anxiety

sometimes i feel like a bad omen. like, every time i come into someone’s life, something bad happens to them which makes us closer. it makes me feel horrible, i don’t wanna be the reason people i care about go through hardship but it feels unavoidable. it seems like conflict follows me wherever i do and i dunno what to do, i’m scared to make new friendships or join groups because that usually causes some sort of instability with the other people there. i’m tired of it, i hate feeling like i’m the reason things fall apart

Friends

Gonna try to be more active here!

3am Thoughts

How to have a glow up.?

Life

tum na laga paaoge andaaza meri
tabaahi ka,
tumne dekha hi kahan hai mujhe shaam
hone ke baad

I'm a very average looking girl, the one who has been mocked for her dark skin and acne all her life. I never had someone crushing over me, someone appreciating me as a human being. I felt unwanted and the feeling became more evident when the guy I was dating left me midway quoting commitment issues and went in a relationship with a much prettier girl. I have met a lot of people who 'like' me but fo not want to be with me for various reasons. Now I have lost all hopes in finding love. My parents have been searching a groom and failed miserably everytime. I've met about 15 guys but was rejected most of the times with silly reasons. The feeling of rejection is so strong that I have stopped acknowledging compliments and the little love shown to me! I feel everyone is is with me are stuck with me and I'm a pain in their ass. All I ever want is to be loved, to belong somewhere, to feel valued, but my confidence has gone so low that I sometimes feel that I should run far away or die! I feel depressed and frustrated all the time!

Depression

Jiss din ki iss dil ne khudse mohabbat
Toh zindagi bhi mujhpe fida hogayii 
-vilen 

Ik im being manipulated and im helpless and stuck and i hate roses after today and ik im not the problem but he says i am, i hate how disgusting my life is rn, im actually hating affection, im hating love and intimacy and everything like that. No one should be in my position. I just want someone to understand that im not a bad person. I want to be happy.

I am in a long-distance relationship for the past two years. Recently we have been having few issues since he is an important point in his career and our conversations in a day have reduced considerably. Even though I understand the situation, I cant help but be frustrated about it. 

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