How shameless I am even after getting tested my bottom line i still run to them 

Life

I hate my parents and that doesn't will change,  who criticized me put me down forever still now and didn't took care of me , focused on other things which are not important and many more ...

F it!

Frustration

19th april is around the corner. 
Fir dil tootega, fir dil royega, fir dil khudko kosega. 
Nahi dekha jayega merese magar dekhna hai


3am Thoughts

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail

Tbh every time I get the chance to meet or talk to a guy I visualise him if he could be the one. I don't assume if he likes me but since I don't like wasting time, I contemplate if he's worth talking to as days go by. Reason is, I don't want to share my life stories to someone who will just pass by. I have a lot to do. I have the habit of categorising people and I like straightforward people. People who knows what they want because I don't. I don't like mind games because it messes up my decisions. I wanna know what page they are and if we can meet halfway. If not, then I'll leave - that easy. I have this rational mind that everyone is just 'ok', everyone is the same, I can talk to everyone, no one will and can harm me so I treat them the same. When a guy tells me he likes me and or I feel that he's starting to like me, I disappear. It's not that I'm not ready but I'm not willing and I know I can't reciprocate the feeling so it's better to remain as friends. Idk how I do it but I have ways to make and tell them that I want to keep them only as friends.

But this time, I found comfort and peace. 

Relationships

The numbness spreads because she is both dead and living, which is no way to exist.

Dil yeh Mera bheaka sa Hai 
Qhwabo aasma me pareende Jaise udte Hua 
Yeh aaj he me jetaa Hu beta Kal ke yadoo me 
Dil tu dhadakta Hai kyu es Kal ke savare ko dekhne 
Mera dil tu Rota Hai kyu en beeta Kal ke yaado me 
Bas 
Bheake qhwabo se 
Es aasma me udte dil ke Sahare me Bandhan hu 
Bas dusre ek parende ke dhundh me laga Hu 



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