How sad it is to start all over again with the new person, like the person knows nothing, and we have to tell every single detail all over again. 

3am Thoughts

I'm going to be deciding what career I'll consider taking, but I'm completely lost. Nothing excites me, nothing really interests me, or I don't have some hobby that can be considered a job, or even just for the damn money. I could just get an easy job for money, but I don't want to live a boring life on something I don't want to do and have low salary. But then, there's nothing I feel like I can independently do without feeling like all a job will give you is the money to buy a house, money or just have a simple and boring life. I don't know where to even start, I don't know anything that can just not leave me bored and miserable. 

Career

I am very stressed out and feeling so stupid.
The thing is I met this guy, it's been 5 months.
He says he likes me alot and I'm the person he always wanted to be with.
But few days back he told he still have feelings for his best friend to whom he proposed 2years back and she is said no, since then they are friends only. He is now confused.
Now he is thinking that if he tells her he might hurt her feeling as he is the only guy friend she have..... 

Stress

देख लेंगे एक दूजे को उसी मैं
तेरे शहर का चाँद मेरे शहर में भी निकलेगा

Long Distance Relationship

You saved my life yet you have no idea, you’re the greatest human being i’ve ever met. I always felt like i didn’t fit in anywhere, I’ve spent most of my life trying to find “my place” now i’ve found it, I belong with you and you belong with me, hence home isn’t a place but a person and that person to me is you. The best way to describe you is by saying you’re my safe place, I’ve never felt more comfortable being myself than when i’m myself around you. Whenever i’m about to break down crying I think of you, I fall into your arms and sigh in relief, it feels like how it would feel like to find a place to rest after running for a very long time, like “oh, i’m finally here and it’s gonna be okay”

How degrading parents can be? Lowering self-esteem everyday. Living 23 yrs with em and me. When I fight with my mind everyday telling you must die. I am tired being me. I had breakdown once again in the morning. I can't see a way out. It doesn't mean I don't do anything. I did. In fact just few hrs back of breakdown I did cardio exercise and meditation. But no, I can't see hope anywhere. Living with me is torture itself.

Mental Health

People always said it's okay to make mistake, but don't repeat again. While me, idk why but I always did the mistakes. Tho not the same mistake, but still... Idk how many times I did the mistakes. Which at times, makes you think you are not fit for the job. Rasa cam bodoh gila. Sigh.

Insecurity

My life is so messed up. I love a guy who doesn't love me back. I have a friend who hates and i am roommate with that friend. My boyfriend never counts me in his special persons list. I always ask a question why everyone take me so granted, why iam always a option or whom can be easily be thrown? What wrong did i do? Am I such a wrong person? Why i suffer everytime i start to get close to someone. why iam so easy to unlove? Is it the looks or my personality or the way i behave? Why me always left behind with pain and tears...

Breakup

Our college have civil dress... And I am confused af what should I wear to college 🙂
And my parents are telling me to wear kurti and salwar etc... Like wtf this doesn't suit me 🥲 nahi to pehen leti

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