How I feel today is confusing, the horrific feeling that I am going through is not easy to put into words.
I miss my ex, way too much. Well you could say that they and I have had many troubles together. It started of with us knowing each other for 2 months, they broke up with me and I was so hurt by it. That night and almost the whole week I bailed my eyes out like there was no tomorrow. Eventually after a week they started to date someone else, which made it even harder for me. I tried to move on, but nothing worked. It’s been 6 months, and I did not move on completely. You see, me and them have been through so much after our relationship. The first time they cut me off : a week later an old friend of mine texted me and said that they were having a panic attack, begging me to help them out because they didn’t know what to do. My ex decided to unblock me and I spoke to them, it was 2 am and we kept talking until 5. They told me that they missed me and that they were sorry. The second time it was because they saw me talking shit about them when they broke up with me, I was hurt and I wanted to make them look bad in my eyes so that I would be able to move on, but not even that worked. How they found out? They were on my account because I asked them to do something, then they promised me not to read me and my best friend’s dm, but they ended up doing that and scrolling 2 months back. After that they dmed me and were sorry, we missed each other too much. There was where the false hope started, they told me that I was the love of their life, that I was their drug, for them 2 weeks later to date someone else. That hurt. Not a week later they told me to tell me what was wrong and I didn’t want to talk about how I felt, because I felt guilty. After I told them that I’d wait for them, they blocked me. Many things happened after that, way too many. People kept sending them anonymous tells “You did them wrong.” “You are heartless” , it hurt me as well because of me, they had to receive that from some anons who I don’t even know. That night they texted me and told me to keep my minions away. I told them that I didn’t send anyone to them. They got mad and we had a whole fight, they said that I was manipulative and some other hard words. Then I was shocked, I was messed up. I gave them an apology. Then again we were friends again after a week. And now? Because I have an “unhealthy obsession” with them + I was avoiding talking about my feelings with them, they decided to cut me off again. It didn’t hurt that much, but today it hurts more than ever. I don’t know what to do about it, it’s been 6 months.
I want to move on, but I don’t know how to.
Xyz @aamisha
Hey. I’ve been on this side. Where you want to move on but you’re not able to. It feels as if you’ll never be able to, it’s like a dead end. But let me tell you that you’re stronger than this. And from all that you’ve told you, you seem to gem of a person. And you deserve all the love and happiness in the world, and that’s exactly why you shouldn’t settle for anything less!
I’ll tell you what helped me move on. Maybe it could help you to. Whenever you think about them, distract yourself. It could be something as casual as going for a walk to something as fancy as a trip. Don’t let yourself drown in your feelings, you’re done making yourself feel so miserable. Whereas you haven’t even done anything wrong. Remind yourself what your self worth is. You’re way better than this. Saying sorry when it’s not your fault, only to get blocked and ignored? To be told that you’re the love of their life only for them to date in a week? You think this is what you’re worth? Remind yourself about all this. And I know you might love them irrespective of all this, so it’s alright. Most importantly, don’t be too harsh on yourself. You’re only human. There’s no alt delete for feelings in real life. But if you’re willing, then everything will fall into place!!
I hope I could help :)
Thank you so much for the sweet words, you helped me with this more than ever. I wish you all the best and I can tell that you’re the strong one here since you’ve been here as well! I will try to use your tips, thank you once again.
Have a great day <3.
It’s a pleasure! Thankyou so much!
Hey ,its okay ,if you have deep feelings work something out ! it helps dearly ,from the heart and out !,if you dont try something new!
